Our Side of the Story

Consequences When I first saw him, I felt nothing and everything at the same time. I felt a pain deep inside that I had no idea existed. It was both the best and worst sensation. “IT'S HIM!!!” screamed my mind. It felt so safe to be with him. “How is it possible to be so angelic?” Every day, I ask myself this question. How would he put up with me when all I do is screw things up? “It's genuine and pure love,” my heart replied. Remember how I poured my heart out on the table in the pastry shop? “What if he crashes it right here and leaves?” I wondered. I guess I was constantly haunted by fear when we were dating. Knowing that we were getting closer to the end by the minute made me even more terrified. Observing who you associate with as well. But I knew I shouldn't get too close to him. Since I was harmed and couldn't love properly. "You don't let go of stuff, and that's messed up," people say. How do I let go of stuff when the things that people did to me in the past are still affecting my current relationships? I got too attached to him sometimes though I wasn't supposed to. I was too broken to trust him, even though he loved me despite my frailty. As a result, I had to hurt him before he could hurt me. I had no choice but to squander the only beautiful thing I'd ever been given. I always adore you in ways that no words could ever express. Against all odds, I do hope to steal your surname one day. Even though you said you didn't feel the same way, I'd like to wait for you whenever. I've never seen someone who is so imperfectly molded and seems so polished and collected; I've never seen a smile that sparked a fire in my cold soul; I've never touched a hand that stopped time. In every way, he is flawless. He's like the last piece of the puzzle you're missing to finish the frame. But it wasn't long before I realized I'd put the last puzzle piece in the wrong spot because the shape of the empty piece was nearly identical. As a result, I had to jumble it. And I discovered that loving you has consequences.

Accepting that I lost him is the hardest part of my life.

Thank you

Parents? I love and respect them but man do they make life harder than it already is. Yes they want what's best for us they just have a complicated way of showing it. Redeeming themselves and their trauma is only through seeing us succeed the way they never got the chance to and because of this they're loosing their kids in the most heartbreaking ways. Just don't hate them okay? They love you at the same time they don't want you to make the same mistakes they made. But if by any chance their choices come in the way of your mental health, life and happiness COMMUNICATE with them. You come first even though these people sacrificed their lives for you😊

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I don’t know who feels this but imagine falling in love with your bestfriend, dating that person, breaking up, continuing the friendship and then having one sided love. You love him/her and you can’t move on…you drop everyone to respond to him/her but they reply to everybody first then respond to you when they remember. You do everything for them and they don’t even think of you. You pray to God everyday to give you back that person. You miss them? Text them You love them? Tell them Wanna feel affection? Hug them Cherish every moment while you have it. Trust me I miss him too even when I’m with him I miss him but I couldn’t say it right when I had the chance and I can’t trip about it if someone else does.

The moments I shake my head with the thought "ውይ! የሰው ልጅ ጭካኔ" are unnumbered, especially these days. Today wasn't different, I was taking a walk with my mom when we heard a girl scream nearby, as we got close we found out some guys got her drunk and tried to get her into a motel. “18 አመቴ ነው ወንድ አላውቅም አስክረውኝ ነው" were the words she said. We tried finding police officers but there weren’t any around so a bunch of guys from our village took the guys that brought her even though they claimed they knew the girl. She told us where her home is so we called for a ride and sent her. ስለ እግዚአብሔር አምላክ ስትሉ በእንደዚህ አይነት አጋጣሚዎች "ምን አገባኝ" ብላችሁ አትለፉ። These helpless women as well as men need us, don't ever walk away. Your interference will save many brokenness, nightmares and hopes.

Happy easter fam🤍

I get caught in treating my own illness, surviving through the day and staying positive that I miss to notice how hard it is for the people around me. Just like a fireplace everyone is too cautious around me, fearing I'd snap or break if they make a single wrong move. I'm not apologizing because how I choose to survive shouldn't be a bother to anyone but I'm saying make a little effort to ease up the worries of those that care about you🤍

Not everything that runs in your brain is appropriate enough to be spoken out loud, choose your words and think before you speak. Sleep well🤍

G'night🤍