Our Side of the Story

No እንበል ዛሬ? No to trying to fit in with the “modern” world. Be weird. Be abnormal. No to ይሉኝታ. No to blurring boundaries. No to whatever makes you feel less of you are.

Whatever you went through in life make sure you dont rub it off on all the good hearts that want to love you. Dont make them carry a burden they had no hand in.

So today I was on the phone with a close family member, our conversation was mainly about trauma (የአእምሮ ጠባሳ) and how it consistently has a way of affecting our daily adulting even when we don’t notice it. Just as our conversation was about to end she said “I’m sorry if I’ve ever hurt you without knowing it, can’t imagine what that would have done to you” This little acknowledgement healed some part of my insides. If only this ego recognition and surpassing existed in every family, even just a little.

He makes beautiful stuff!

Oftentimes, offense comes from insecurity and reality checks Instead of being defensive, be curious when you get offended

Once in a while, even more often take some time to be away from the environment you're used to. Unknowingly we identify ourselves with the people and situations surrounding us that once we're detached from them we don't know how to function. Learn to do some things alone. Validate your thoughts, journal them. Take care of your body, drink water and eat well. Before anything, be your own person.

Yesterday I saw people being so emotional and feeling loved just because someone thought of them enough to wrap them a gift. Celebrating this holiday just reminds me how I belittle the amazing gift CHRIST is.

መልካም ገና!

Don’t seek happiness. If you seek it you won’t find it, because seeking is the antithesis of happiness. Happiness is ever elusive, but freedom from unhappiness is attainable now, by facing what is rather than making up stories about it. Unhappiness covers up your natural state of well being and inner peace, the source of true happiness.

Empathy is good እሺ? Too much Naivety ነው ጠላት.

“የሚበላ አንጀት የለኝም" perhaps an equivalent phrase for I’m numb, and unable to process empathy of any sort?

Maybe this is me reading too deep between moments but on somedays, some hugs feel different than they usually do?

እዋይ University

I’ve definitely said, “go ask for help, don’t carry your pain alone, there’s always someone willing to listen” countless times. Perhaps this is me contradicting my own words. Somewhere along the line of being taught hard lessons with struggles you didn’t ask for, you pick up a few things. Bitter truths, the harshness of reality and the different shades of humankind. By the time you feel weakened and in need of some words to lift you up, nothing will suffice. You’ve read every poetry, maybe wrote some, gave and received advices, sat through so many intense conversations, and did whatever growth/maturity asks from you. Something inside of me dies when I see people trying to make sense of my burdens which by the way I don’t even understand, I just carry them because I’m supposed to. A sudden realization, I might despise advices or maybe the misuse of them. Carry this truth with you, it’s okay if people don’t know any better than you do. We’re all trying to fit in a place where we don’t belong, but regardless we keep trying.

Whenever I think of abandonment issues Aster Aweke’s Kulun comes to my mind, and I can’t say how much I love this depiction of it.