Pleasure diary

My shibari journey has been such a rollercoaster! I didn’t like the feeling of ropes on my body when I tried them for the first time. The second time, I felt like a netted sausage in ropes and didn’t find it aesthetically pleasing, to say the least. Things changed when I found an emotional connection to rope in Kharkiv with my partner Sergiy, who is a rigger — about 5 years ago. Suddenly, ropes became an instrument for different sensations and feelings: pleasure, pain, excitement, helplessness, letting go, arousal, fun, relaxation, safety… I enjoyed being in ropes. I tried tying too, but my brain refused to remember the basic knots. Ah, I was angry, I cried, I tried again — zero result. So I gave up. But some time later, I took rope into my hands again — and somehow the knowledge of the basic knots was already there! I moved to Berlin and, highly motivated, started attending different shibari workshops. Again, I couldn’t repeat anything. For a few years, I lost interest in both tying and being tied; my attention moved away from shibari toward massages, playfights, dance… Recently, a friend asked if I could tie her, and I felt courageous enough to try. Suddenly, I was already making different rope patterns on her body and doing half-suspension 😱 Yesterday I surprised myself again. I watched a chest harness tutorial with friends, and Nadja and I decided to try it out in suspension — it turned into a whole session with transitions in the air! I don’t know where this confidence came from, but it felt so easy to do. I’m feeling really happy after yesterday’s spontaneous tying session ^^ I’m also grateful to Nadja for her trust, curiosity, and openness to explore and experiment together 🐱🧡🧡 It’s so interesting how sometimes the body needs time to learn and process new things. What’s your relationship with ropes? Have you experienced something similar in your own rope journey? 🪢 Please share 🙃

🤩🤩 🤩🤩 We went flower hunting 🌸💜 Thank you for this playful evening we created together, Sandra 🫶🏻 Insta: @sandra.tamko Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/

Do you love fruit altars as much as I do? 🍓🫐 These are some juicy tables I prepared for Spielwiese events. Every time it’s a pleasure to be a responsible Fruit Royalty👑 I’m really struggling with cooking sometimes — but decorating is pure joy ^^ The next fruit altar I’m creating will be at Spielwiese • Conscious Temple on July 13, hosted by my dear friends Till and Shirka 🥰 Hope to see you there! Check out the details👇 (Till and Shirka organize different sex-positive events in Berlin, Vienna & Zurich and a 4 days retreat in October!): https://t.me/TillTailorShirka ANNNND this time besides the fruit magic I’ll also be offering short Thai Massage sessions during the event on June 13th💆🦶Talk to me if you want to try ^^ @Natalia_Kuzmina

Hiii 🫶🏻 Do you still have some free space in your calendar for the festival? I will facilitate and perform at LOVE RYOT – body & intimacy festival (June 18-21, close to Cologne). Check it out! spoo.me/loveryot What will I be offering? KINKY MASSAGE Grounding, gentle, rough, teasing, scratchy, stingy… the touch can be so many things. In this workshop we will explore different ways of consensual touch: from feather-like and whisper massage to intense pressure points and playful body movement. LIQUID SELF-LOVE RITUAL (performance) It is a story of Natasha’s connection with their own naked body, movement, and pleasure — sensual, intimate, and deeply personal. This ritual is a blend of oily Lomi Lomi-inspired self-massage, improvisational dance, and authentic movement on the massage table. CREATIVE SPEED DATING It is an invitation to meet new people through short, playful experiences. Instead of classic speed dating, we create a space for silly, thoughtful, and connecting exercises in pairs or trios. Some activities involve talking, others movement, creativity, or consensual touch. You are always free to join, pause, skip, or adapt anything so it feels comfortable for you. “HOW TO USE ME” station Create a kinky manual about yourself. You’ll find a table with pocket-size books, where you can write and draw. The invitation is to reflect on and explore your desires, boundaries, the unique sensitivity of your body — and write your thoughts in these books, that you can later keep for yourself or give to someone. Hope to see you there 🤗

Save the date! Playback community gathering at our friends’ summer house near Berlin (S Strausberg) ☀️ July 3–5 (You can join or leave at any time, sleep there or go back home) We will explore the theme: “BODIES HOLDING STORIES” For playbackers and friends — no experience required 🫶🏻 The concept: We are creating a space to share knowledge, ideas, and creative practices across different fields. A space to experiment, connect, and co-create. Every evening we will gather around the fire, share stories, and do playback theater jams. You can offer an embodied exercise, a voice or movement practice, clowning methods, a discussion on empathy in the world, cook something delicious, draw a mind map of our ideas, or meditate on the tree. Please think about: 1. What would you like to offer during this gathering? 2. What would you like to learn or explore? Money: We will share the cost of food + a 5–15€ donation per person for the house. What we can do there: • move, dance, sleep, laugh, cry, sing, scream, eat, play • swim in the lake • enjoy the sauna • cook together and have picnics in the garden • share stories by the fire and practice playback jams every day Sleeping: You can sleep in the house, in a large glamping tent, or bring your own tent. Maximum 10-15 people can sleep at the location. Maximum number of people around the fire — still to be discovered ^^ If you’re interested, write me @Natalia_Kuzmina More details coming soon 🤗

“Dancing with the Stones” 26.04.2026 Nöldnerpark, Berlin Everything moves at its own speed. Time is relative. The movement of stones is almost imperceptible from the human perspective — yet fast from the perspective of the Universe. This collective movement & voice experiment explored the relationship between human bodies and stones — touch, gravity and different experiences of time. Please watch the full art piece with sound on🔉

Hello from Greece, Athens! ☀️ I’m here for the Thai massage course with a wonderful teacher Takis. 11 days training in the Sunshine retreat center, and I am staying longer as a volunteer. It’s a second course with Takis, I am so excited! The dynamic Thai training was so good, so I decided to travel for the one more longer course. Anyone from Athens here? Let’s meet! Anyone wants to get a Thai massage in Berlin? Let’s plan for May,22 — when I’m back 🤗

Wow, I’m still enjoying the aftertaste of our massage exchange weekend 🫠 It was absolutely wonderful, and I’m grateful for every moment we shared together. Things are still unfolding, and the words aren’t quite ready yet to describe the experience. But what is ready… is a new invitation 😍 I’m happy to announce ✨ we’re doing it again! ✨ 30.10–01.11 — Massage Exchange Weekend #2 🥰 You can already message me if you’d like to join — more details coming soon.

Hello dears! I’m renting out a room in a cozy 2-room WG in Lichtenberg (S Nöldnerplatz). Dates: 29.04 – 09.06 (42 days) Price: 1050€ You will stay in two different rooms during this time: • First 3 weeks — room with a hanging chair • Last 2 weeks — room with glittery curtains Both rooms are similar in size and super cute 🫶🏻 This offer is only for friends or friends of friends (non-smokers). There is also a shorter option: 05.05 – 17.05 (13 days) During this time, both rooms are free, and you can rent the glittery room for 325€ Contact Natasha on Telegram: @Natalia_Kuzmina Contact Till on Telegram: @TillTailor

Hello dears! I’m excited to share my new project for sex-positive humans 🤗 “HOW TO USE ME” It is a pocket-size playbook with personal questions that center pleasure and joy. You can write your answers and transform this book into a manual about yourself ☀️ “How to use me” invites to reflect on and explore topics like consent, desires, boundaries, relationship agreements, safer sex, aftercare, and the unique sensitivity of your body. What can you do with it? 🌸Fill it out for yourself as a tool for self-reflection and self-discovery 🌸Prepare it as a gift for your partner(s) 🌸Use it as a way introduce yourself at sex-positive events I’d love to see it spread everywhere! (and yes, also receive some money for my work 💸). You can contact me and get a zine for a donation between €1–€10 (recommended donation is €5). If you want 20+ copies for your event, we can do €3 per zine, OR you cover the materials and create a cute little “How to Use Me” station with a donation box Please write to me if you have any feedback, questions, or suggestions! @Natalia_Kuzmina It’s very fresh, so I appreciate any thoughts 🙏🏻 thank youuu Hugs 🤗

I got really into acro yoga lately. For a long time I had this idea that “girls shouldn’t lift heavy things” – that it’s somehow bad for women’s health. And ofc generally be lighter, softer. And now I discovered how much I enjoy being a base😍: I love lifting people, feeling strong in my muscles, stable in my body. There’s something deeply satisfying in it. I notice a similar feeling when I do play fights or a bit of Jiu-jitsu and Brazilian jiu-jitsu. I remember a therapist years ago told me I could try boxing or any other type of martial arts, or challenging physical activity. At that time I was very connected to my softness and flexibility, and not connected to my anger or inner strength. It took me some years until I got there, and now I’m really enjoying ^^ It feels really good to lift, resist, and stay grounded 💪 Every Monday at 8 p.m. I go to an acro yoga class. And looking forward to the warm weather to practice in parks. Feel free to join me if you’re interested! 🙃

Hello dears! Two rooms available in a cozy 2-room WG in Lichtenberg (S Nöldnerplatz) Just for friends or friends of friends (non-smokers) Natasha’s pink room: 30.04-24.05 — 700€ @Natalia_Kuzmina Till’s shiny room: 05.05-17.05 and 20.05-09.06 — 30€ per day (min. 6 days) @TillTailor

Hello dear playbackers, dancers, musicians, actors 🫶 The next Playback Theater Jam March 28 at 13:00-16:00 🙃 Address: Theaterhaus Berlin Mitte Neue Jakobstraße 9, 10179 Berlin, Germany Donation: 5€-10€ (to cover rent) Language: English, but we will adapt to the group 🙏🏻 Meetings are open to everyone who wants to practice, perform, share stories and connect with the Playback community. It is not a workshop for beginners, it is a jam, where everyone contributes. Experience in playback is appreciated, but not required). It is space for co-creation, where you can offer exercises for movement, voice, acting and topics you want to work on. We will learn, get inspired from each other and experiment together🔥 Playback Theatre is form of improvisational theatre in which audience members tell stories from their lives and actors immediately “play back” those stories on stage through movement, voice, and scenes. Write me @Natalia_Kuzmina if you want to know more information and/or to be added to the playback theatre jam chat If you can’t join us on 28.03, come next time :) the updates are coming soon. Looking forward to seeing you all! 🤗🫶🏻🌸☀️

I started identifying as a non-binary pansexual person (currently in a lesbian phase 💞) a few years ago, and it came with the realization that queer culture holds so much knowledge I’ve been missing. I’m watching this really cool podcast about things I didn’t know: https://youtu.be/bjzdKN9F3Iw?is=V0Z5Nknc-yyl6Ygo Do you have any podcasts/videos/books to recommend? Please share links!

It was such a relief for me to find Contact Improvisation dance! For a long time, I thought that I was terrible at dancing. I was avoiding dance floors at all costs. Especially when my first boyfriend in my teens was good at dancing — I just wanted to disappear. Later, I tried to “work” on it, but I hated choreography — my brain couldn’t remember the steps and moves, and instead of enjoying it, I felt like I was fighting for my life trying to count them. In partnered dance, I would panic and feel envious of girls who could relax and follow. In contemporary dance, I was hyper-aware that everyone was watching me, so I was terrified of making a mistake. And when I had already given up, I found myself in a contact improv workshop — and it was surprisingly nice. It turned out, I could dance 😱 I’ve been practicing CI for 5 years now, and I really appreciate the special qualities this practice brings to my life: physical awareness of my body, being present and sensitive, enjoying movement, and the ability to go with the flow. I also love exploring different kinds of touch and sharing body weight. I just watched a short, cool documentary about contact improvisation — maybe you’d be interested as well? 😍 (3 parts) https://youtu.be/k768K_OTePM?is=okMo9oPawxr20qee Contact improvisation was developed by dancers Steve Paxton, Nancy Stark Smith, Lisa Nelson and others — and now it has spread worldwide. Are you dancing CI as well? Maybe you’ve seen or tried it once? What’s your experience with dance?

Hi everyone! I invite you to IKSK Spring Cabaret & play party on March 22nd, start at 19:00 🫶🏻 I will be performing there as well as other wonderful humans! https://www.iksk-berlin.de/playparty/juliette-springtime Natasha (they/she) aka Oily Divine : Liquid Self-Love ritual It is a story of connection with their own naked body, movement, and pleasure — very sensual and intimate. See you 🤗

If you’re also tired of boring mainstream porn, check out this super fun genderqueer animated series 🤩 I stumbled upon it by accident, and I’m definitely a fan of Gummy and the Doctor 🔥🙃 The idea alone that the Doctor modified their own body so it is possible to swap out different genitals is already reason enough to watch 👏🏻 (Doctor has a huge collection of interchangeable genitals in every shape and size) https://www.gummyandthedoctor.com The first episode: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph62061ab8c1e74 Enjoy!

Hello dears! We are organizing a cozy massage retreat with a friend Nele at her parent’s house. It’s going to be a small group — 8 people — and we have 3 free spots for now. It’s FLINTA event ☀️ Would you like to join? Massage Exchange Weekend – playful exploration & deep nourishment April 17-19 | Pasewalk (approx. 1.5 h from Berlin) It is a shared space for exploring, experimenting, giving and receiving, and offering feedback. A balance between technique and flow, depth and ease, structure and intuition. General information Arrival Friday afternoon, departure Sunday evening Location: Pasewalk, around 1.5 hours from Berlin by car or train. Pick-up from the train station is possible. Contribution: 220-280 € (self-assessed). Accommodation and meals are included. Sleeping in shared rooms. The place Two indoor spaces with fireplaces Garden with the option for a campfire Mini sauna Bathroom with a bathtub and a separate toilet Kitchen (Nele will be cooking and we appreciate help with chopping and washing dishes) Massage setup includes massage tables and futons Massage exchange The focus of the weekend is massage exchange. Techniques may include Lomi, Rebozo, and other modalities brought in by the group. When registering, please let us know which massage techniques you can offer. What matters to us is a genuine willingness to exchange: receiving different techniques giving and receiving feedback researching and learning together openness toward different styles and approaches Structure and flow of the weekend Friday – arrival and landing Check-in and getting to know each other Open evening for arriving, resting, chatting, meditating, or offering and receiving first massages if desired Saturday – technique and exploration More active and technical focus Guided massage rounds with clear beginnings and endings Detailed work, experimentation, and feedback Sharing circles Time for rest and retreat Sunday – flow and integration More fluid and intuitive work Full-body massages given and received Moving deeper into sensing, experiencing, and integrating Additional elements Guided morning movement Sharing and feedback circles Time for rest, pauses, and community Intention We will hold a playful and relaxed research space. There will be guidance from Natasha and/or Nele, and at the same time self-responsibility, initiative, and co-creation are welcome and needed. This weekend is intended as a communal experience to recharge, while actively researching, exploring, and learning together through touch. You can get in contact with @Natalia_Kuzmina for registration 🩷☀️