Our Side of the Story

I honestly don’t know why I’m thinking about languages at this hour.

Amharic is a very dense, strained yet beautiful language.

Welcome your bad days with an embrace so warm even if they leave you wounded and bleeding, the scars will be reminders of your decision to keep moving and accept life as it is.

እንጃ it’s honestly so devastating to see what being culture and norm wired has done to us. ልብ እንዳሻው grieve ማድረግ የማይችልበት ሀገር ጥቁር ሲለበስ ነውር ነው...ሲለቀስ ነውር ነው...እህ!

ሰላም👋🏾 ህይወትን (ነገሮችን) በቁጥጥሬ ስር ማዋል እችላለሁ ብላችሁ ታስባላችሁ? ቢሆን ቆንጆ ነበር...ሁሉም ሰው ቀለል ያለ እና ውጥረት የማይኖርበትን ኑሮ እንዲኖር:: መወለድ...ማደግ...ትምህርት መማር...ስራ መያዝ (ያው በህይወት ለመቆየት ሲባል)...ቤተሰብ መመስረት ወይም ደግሞ የእኔ የምንለውን ሰው መፈለግ...ጊዜው ሲደርስ ደግሞ የገነባነውን በሙሉ ደህና ሰንብት ብሎ መሞት:: መቼም አይ ከእነዚህ ውስጥ አንዱን እምቢ ብዬ መቆጣጠር እችላለሁ የሚል አይኖርም...እንደው ምናልባት የትምህርቷን ጉዳይ:: እና ምን ተሻለ? እሺ ማለት ወይም acceptance! ልንለውጥ የምንችላቸውን እና የእኛን ትጋት ለሚጠይቁ ነገሮች ለፍቶ እንደሚሆኑ ማድረግ መልካም ነው...የማይለወጡትን እና የህይወት ገጽታዎች የሆኑትን ነገሮች ደግሞ እንዳሉ ምን ባደርግ የተሻለ ይሆናል? ብሎ መፍትሄ ፈልጎ ወደ እሺታው መሄድ ይመረጣል:: ሁሉም control አይደረግም እንግዲህ😊

በእውነት! Listen to your gut feelings. All the negative thoughts ከነምናምኑ ሳይሆን you’ll know which one is sound or not if you sit through it well. It’s there for a reason.

09|07|15 “የትኛውንም አይነት ችግር ላለመጋፈጥ፥ የማልሆነው ነገር የለም። ጉልበት ባለኝ ጊዜ፥ እሮጣለሁ። በደከምኩ ጊዜ፥ ጥፍሬ ውስጥ እደበቃለሁ። ነገር ግን ደስ ብሎኝ አያውቅም። የሆነ ማነስ እንደተሰማኝ ነው። ቢሆንም አንዳንድ ቀን፥ እንደዛሬው ባለ ቀን፥ ድፍ..ር ብዬ! አንድ ሁለት ችግሮቼን ሳቃልል የሚሰማኝ ድል አድራጊነት፥ ወደር የለውም። ለመሸለል ይቃጣኛል። የማላውቀውን ዜማ፥ በፉጨት አተራምሰዋለሁ።” አላት። “ዛሬ ምን አደረክ?” አለችው። “ኦ... ዛሬ ልብስ አጠብኩ። አልጋዬን አነጠፍኩ!”

ምን notice አደረኩ መሰላችሁ? The types of songs we listen to, the content our mind is exposed to everyday on social media, the people we spend time with and have conversations with have a very እንዲህ ነው የማይባል effect on our mental health. Sit through three minutes of a sad song and watch your energy slowly turning gloomy, spend a few hours with people who love complaining and suddenly you hate your existence, read stuff that triggers your pain body and moving on will be a dream you’ll never reach. Be careful እ?

Let it be a day we get out of our heads, Amen! መልካም ቀን :)

The first two things that come to my mind when I think about "addiction" are "Relaps" and "withdrawal". I never thought about the fact that I might be getting addicted to cigarettes and weed until yesterday. My dumb ass thought I wasn't addicted to those shits just because I'm on the II stage of addiction, which is being a regular user. I could get out of the house telling myself that I'm not gonna smoke over and over again. I say the words till I get to wherever I'm going, then I buy a pack of cigarettes when I reach there. Then, I just say "fuck it!" And blaze. Smoking has to be part of my day if I'm outside of the house. I can work without smoking but interacting with people? No. I feel like I can be myself freely and not always in control. I can feel things that I can't feel when I'm sober. It's one of the reasons why I keep smoking. [Because there are things that I desperately wanna feel]. It's liberating, but it also makes you a captive at the same time. It makes you a pathetic mortal sort. I'm constantly looking for those two because I always wanna feel like myself a little. Ik who I am doesn't depend on a pack of cigarettes or a joint but substances are like those toxic people we keep going back to knowing we could be better off without them. Yet, we let our happiness depend on their presence. It doesn't matter if the kiss burns your lips and throat. It doesn't matter if his breath is like mustard gas ruining your lungs, as long as it gives you goosebumps. It doesn't matter if it's becoming part of your system or already has.

Because this was too beautifully written not to share :)

People around “addicts” if you have a sibling, parent or friend how’s your experience as well? @DebbieTesfaye

እንደ society ደግሞ...ስንት ልንፀየፋቸው የሚገቡንን ሀጥያቶች እና ግድፈቶች በጉያችን አቅፈን እየዞርን "ሱሰኛ" ለተባሉት ግን የተለየ ግልምጫ እና አፍንጫ መያዙ ለምን አስፈለገ? ለነገሩ መወንጀል ወዳጃችን ነው

ሰላም :) Let’s talk ሱስ? What’s your personal experience with using substances? How has it affected your mental health and social life? Whatever you’re comfortable with drop them off your chest here @DebbieTesfaye

Here’s a little something we’ve been doing with my friends for a while now, kindly join the channel :)