Luvsociety

I don’t trust people easily anymore. Not because I think everyone is bad. But because I have seen how quickly people can change when their interest changes. So now, when someone sits in front of me, smiles with me, talks to me like they mean it, a part of my mind still keeps one door unlocked for disappointment. I listen. I observe. I remember patterns. I notice how people speak about others when those people are not around, because one day that is exactly how they may speak about me. I notice what happens when there is money involved. When ego is involved. When jealousy is involved. When there is something to gain. When there is suddenly nothing to gain. That is where people usually introduce themselves properly. I no longer give trust just because someone gives me attention. Trust has to survive time. It has to survive inconvenience. It has to survive misunderstandings. It has to survive the moment where betraying me would actually benefit you. Until then, I keep a little distance inside my own head. And yes, somewhere in me there is always that thought that one day the person sitting in front of me might be the same person who puts a knife in my back. Maybe that sounds cold. Maybe it is. But I would rather be called guarded than be shocked by human nature every single time it reveals itself. The difference now is that I don’t live in fear of betrayal. I live prepared for it. My mind has already walked through the possibility. What if they leave? What if they lie? What if they switch sides? What if everything they said turns out to mean nothing? I have already asked myself those questions. And I have already accepted the answers. So I don’t build expectations anymore. I build awareness. You show me loyalty, I value it. You show me consistency, I remember it. You show me your ugly side, I don’t act surprised. You show me your true colours, I don’t waste time asking why the colour changed. I just adjust my distance. That is what changed in me. Before, betrayal used to destroy the image I had of someone. Now I try not to build an image in the first place. I let people reveal themselves slowly. And when they do, I believe what I see. No unnecessary anger. No dramatic confrontation. No begging for explanations. No asking, “How could you do this to me?” Because deep down, my mind had already accepted that people are capable of becoming exactly what they once promised they would never be. So if one day you disappoint me, betray me, leave me, lie to me, or become someone I no longer recognise, it will hurt. I am still human. But it will not shock me. There is a difference. Pain is difficult. Shock is worse. And I have trained myself to remove the shock. So now, I don’t expect people to stay good. I watch whether they choose to. That is enough for me 🖤