Our Side of the Story

Hidden war I'm fighting a battle No one else can see It's not against someone else But rather The demons inside of me It's been going on for years now And I'm slowly losing this fight No matter how late I stay up at night I try my best to be strong To fight my inner battles And still pretend nothing's wrong But everyday is a little harder I'm tired of waking up Because the nightmare never ends And the voices never stop My heart is getting tired From beating all the time It can't compete With my restless mind I try to numb the pain By cutting up my thighs But it's a habit I can't quit I finally have realized But with a hidden battle I end up all alone But it's better this way Cause no one stays anyways Nobody to call home Alex Bayes🖤

I CHOOSE SILENCE🥀 I just wanted an ordinary life not for wealth not for fame just to live silently without being noticed just like i got here I want to live like that...I didn't ask for much did I?...I just wanted to live quietly. I was passing through the locker room going to home but they see me and say "look who is passing" "just take off ur mask creep" " die please! ohh you are afraid right? Like u have something to lose" I just pass holding my tears I never laid my hands or my words on them did I?...they just hate me for being normal. they say silence is violence...I just pass them and reach home...my mom waiting smiling in the living room asking me how my day was and about my friends as if I have any. I just put my fake smile and lie to her face..."it was great mama and my friends are awesome too" It hurts so bad I see nothing but yeah I choose silence because it's silence🥀 BG🖤 @Elpanorama

I CHOOSE OBLIVION🥀 As I walk down the path of life with my own bubble engulfing me, my own walls protecting me from the strangers outside, wearing my beautiful yet pained fake smile to keep the hunters of pure heart away and putting on thousands of blank expressions so their cold words won't get to my skin...I hear them whispering "dramatic queen" "Just look at her pathetic" "Who does she think she is" I wanted to bark, scream and murder the brutality out of them...but then I don't see myself having the energy or the time to waste. I move on, I don't pick up my pace nor do I lessen it...I just walk like I heard nothing...like I saw nothing because oblivion is so much better than being trapped in the judgements and painful words of those fools! D💜 @Elpanorama

I can relate to both who voted "same old" and "busy" as confusing as it sounds. Spilling out how my days were isn't necessary, let me just tell the one thing that I understood. 🥀BEING REAL🥀 We often pass through situations where we find ourselves striving to be seen as perfect in the eyes of others which is completely wrong. If you're not feeling okay then don't feel okay. If you don't want to talk to someone then don't talk to them (don't pretend you want to). If you have something you hate about someone close to you then say it (don't pretend as if you're okay with it) Not for the sake of others but for you! Be real and deal with whatever the consequences are. Note: You don't have to prove anything to anyone!

Thursday down, yay to whoever survived out there😊 You can survive the rest of your given days too just fight a little more harder okay?! G'night and sleep well💜

So we're back to our original name😊 And today is book recommendation Thursdays! Let me share two books for today and I'll kindly accept recommendations from you too @DebbieTesfaye.

G'night fam🤗💜

Today's issue; Humility (ትህትና) Humility according to MWD is the quality or state of not thinking you are better than other people the quality or state of being humble. Why did I pick this title? 👉🏽 Because it's what we often struggle with and what the lack of it does to our relationships with people. See some people refer humility as being defeated or lowering your value which it is but in a good way! We think if we're humble to people we have to let whatever they do to us slide without commenting or stand there while they do us wrong, but no! Being humble means standing for your mindsets (opinions) and feelings in the most genuine way possible😊 Humility doesn't only go with the relationships we have with people but also with ourselves and life. It's not hidden that we struggle every single days of our lives and humility plays a role in how we respond to these struggles. (Our problems affect us in the way we respond to them) If we choose to be humble and convince ourselves things will change for the better and stand firm with faith in the storm then no matter how long it takes things will get easier and the pressure will lessen from our chests. But if we choose to complain and fuel up our problems then the healing will never come. Be humble and lessen your pressure. Be humble and smile more. Be humble and successful. ✨ Be humble✨ ትህትና አለመቻል ወይንም ሽንፈት አይደለም! ትዕቢትም ማሸነፍ እና ብርቱ መሆን አይደለም! Thank you for coming this long and reading🌺 (I'd probably make a podcast with more explanation in the coming days, till then hope you got something😊)

Good morning...for the one's awake and also the one's that'll wake up in the afternoon😊 It's Wednesday so we're supposed to have our weekly podcast but it's going to be written today, it's better than not posting at all so my apologies🙌🏽

Let's call it a night here😊 Just a little tip though, don't expect life to change overnight. Don't expect your depression, anxiety, addiction and whatever you're going through to disappear miraculously. Healing takes time just give yourself a chance. Sleep well💜