Survivor guilt

Dyin' in our sleep, we're living out a dream we only make it out alone i just keep on hopin' that you call me you say you wanna see me, but you can't right now you never took the time to get to know me was scared of losin' somethin' that we never found we're running out of reasons, but we can't let go I'm tired of being what you want me to be and every step that I take is another mistake to you and every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb, I can't feel you there I've become so numb.

I got this feeling and it's getting stronger i sense it in me day by day feel like a prisoner of my own devices what's hiding inside of me a mixed up feeling running through my veins now feels my perception has gone astray all the things that I ever dreamt of T the truth is you're inside of me and every day i just can't change my mind about you all the things I've been searching for suddenly came so true seems I've been living for too long in darkness like a demon hiding from the sun i made a promise I would never leave you imprisoned and I just can't run retribution ain't no friend of mine i paid my dues, it's all been said and done just the culprit of my own misfortune so I'm guilty and that's my only crime.