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"beta kya kar leti ho?" raat bhar macchar maarti hu

mom caught me bitching bout her. awkward ho gya माहौल. thora sa doob ke mar jau kya

Socializing is only worth it if I like my outfit.

mausam nice h

i wish my mother didn't make me spend every day wondering what it would have been like if i had never been born. i wish i knew what it felt like to wake up without wanting to end my shit every single day. i wish my childhood had looked a little more normal. i wish my mother loved me because she wanted to, not because she was obligated to. i wish she liked me, not just the idea of being responsible for me. i wish i wasn't always the one left behind while everyone else seemed to come first. i wish i had grown up believing i was worth choosing. i wish i didn't have so many wishes to begin with.

perhaps i'll spend the rest of my life trying to become someone kinder. if not because i owe it to myself, then because i owe it to her.

my mother has always believed that i'm too selfish to truly love anyone. lately, i've started wondering if she's onto something.

"i love you" kya majboori thi?🤣

been watching 4 shows and movies along with reading 3 books and i want to start 6 other things