اگزیستانسیال

it's not your fault tho, we're humans. we were designed to be like this.

"to left everything behind and start over" actually i would just left. without a single trace.

i simply despise any humanity activities.

i wish i could left the human interaction behind and socialize with a cat instead.

you would be amazed about how quickly i can disappear.

1:26 been crushed, been fucked, been used, new man born from all of this. saw it coming for a long time. punishing me no more.

RELEASE ME FROM THIS FUCKASS COUNTRY.

"Are you okay?" no I want to leave this country and start a new life.

i tried to escape from it, but i failed. too many times actually. it's like a never ending cycle of existential crisis.

it may make me look insane, but unfortunately or not, this is what i am.

i never tried to fully explain how i feel since i knew i'd get executed for it or sent to a mental hospital for it.

it doesn't matter what it would cost, the matter is to feel. rather alive or dead. just to feel something.

everytime i finally get close to explaining it, i realise i don't even feel that way anymore.

and i can feel my influence dpreading out around me and living on my guilt. and i can feel how real it is saying, “we don’t know anything”.

1:39 i’m calling, and i’m calling, but not no one is standing at the river bank calling out my name. and i can feel the soil and silt, i’m calling and i’m calling like no one ever did.