اگزیستانسیال

even if i had everything i wanted, the feeling of not being worthy of it won't leave me be.

i feel like a fainting street lamp in the early morning. i'm doing my best to shine for some moments, but the sun is up, and there's light everywhere. i can't be seen even if i try too.

pain, i got some if you want some.

two times i've tried for pleasure, my life is full displeasure. happiness is gone forever, a long time we tried forever.

pain, i got some if you want some.

به قهوه نیاز دارم، اما از نوعِ قَجَریش.

امروز با ۴۶۲تا شخصیتم سر یک میز نشستیم و همه به این توافق رسیدیم که مهم نیست. بعد دور هم چای خوردیم و راجبش گریه کردیم.

این توده‌ی گوشت و اعصابی که توی جمجمه‌ام دارم نمی‌ذاره اونطور که باید، زندگی کنم.

نمیدونم چرا هر وقت پام رو از اتاقم بیرون میذارم، احساس پشیمونی بهم دست میده. مهم نیست اوقات خوبی رو بگذرونم یا نه، انگار کار اشتباهی مرتکب شدم.

but all i know is how it makes me feel, and it makes me feel, how it makes me feel.

i can be anything that i wanna be and i can feel the things i don't normally feel. i can finally be totally honest, it's like i'm looking down the barrel of a gun. (fucking shoot me)

2:47 sepulcher unobscured, nothing covers me. i'll cut it right out of me, hold it up.