Our Side of the Story

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Growing up and even now living in the days I thought I have healed from my childhood I always have struggled and struggles still with making home in people. And dealing with the excruciating fear of losing that person. I have always been the type to fear human connection because people had the liberty to leave with the home I made in them whenever they want. Being left outweighed the fear of being nurtured and cared for. Found myself Nurturing and caring for that person too. The last couple of months I found myself being faced with that same fear. With the same kind of triggers and unwanted reactions to things. I found myself back where I was as a little kid. The more I thought about it,the more it made me sick. But today I realized something. I have always been so conscious in giving people something worthy enough for them to stay,to love me and to not be compared with anyone else. I failed to recognize the one love that I should never have to feel this way about. The one that didn't require effort to receive love.ይሄድ ይሆን ብለህ የማትጨነቅለት...ቃል እንድትደረድርለት የማይጠብቅ...የማትሰጋበት የማትፈራበት አጣው ይሆን የሚለው ፍርሀት ለሊት ከእንቅልፍህ የማይቀሰቅስህ...ፍቅር ራሱሙሉ እሱነቱ የሆነ...አይኖቹ እየተመለከቱኝ፠ደሙ አሁንም ያለማቋረጥ እየጮኸ how did I forget to see him? How did my legs choose to wonder everywhere but to him while still being ቤቱ ውስጥ? ልቤን ለምን ይህን ያህል ቀለለበት....

Check in on your friends eshi? Hug them well, be open for whatever burden they might come to you with. Bleed their ears with loving words and remind them how much they mean to you.

I sympathize people who are excruciatingly hard on themselves. It’s okay to break, really. It’s okay to go out of routine sometimes and have unplanned days. It’s natural to admit some days you’re weak and you’re not as great as you think you are. It’s okay to be completely clueless. It’s okay to be confused.

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Working on becoming that interesting uncle to my nephews and nieces. Where everytime they come to my house they return with priceless souvenirs. And no! I dont mean trauma.

“Some things are up to us, and others are not. By focusing on what is in our control we can direct our efforts accordingly. We need to accept that the world is what it is.”

Hey guys I need a favor. Anyone with siblings who need private music lessons for the summer preferably from the age 7-15? @DebbieTesfaye

Just what level of mental state was I in to read የጭን ቁስል at the age of 13?