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— Breakfast at Tiffany's, 1961 Dir. Blake Edwards

also, sorry for holding grudges. it's not something i can help.

even though i've shown how much I struggle with this kind of behavior, people keep doing the very things that make me feel annoying and insecure. so all I'm left with is questioning the whole relationship from beginning to end. there's nothing more innocent than someone who's so discombobulated that they're desperately trying to figure out whether their so-called friends hate them or not.

i've always believed that you are your friends. no one can really be that different from the people they choose to surround themselves with. if you didn't have anything in common with them, or if you didn't approve of the way they are, you probably wouldn't be friends with them, right?

and if someone has shitty friends, does that mean they're a shitty person themselves? because i've always thought of them as someone very sweet and precious, but their friends clearly hate my guts, and they're also very pretentious and judgmental. does that mean this friend of mine is a shitty person as well?

so i'm trying to wrap my head around something i've been struggling with for quite a while now. if someone treats you as if you're a freaking dirtbag but continues to hang out with you, even though they've made it clear that you're not their priority when it comes to friendships, does that mean they actually want to be friends with you, or do they hate your guts?

“You killed your european son, you spit on those under twenty-one, but now your blue car's gone, you better say so long, hey, hey, bye, bye, bye, you made your wallpapers green, you want to make love to the scene, your european son is gone, you'd better say so long, your clown's bid you goodbye.”

— ghost of halloween '24

این فیلم خیلی بامزه بود. صحنه‌ای که شخصیت دختر به شخصیت پسر تو زبان چکی میگه که دوست‌اش داره ولی پسره هیچوقت متوجه نمیشه صحنه‌ای هست که هر چندوقت یکبار به یادش میوفتم و بهش فکر می‌کنم.

— Once, 2007 Dir. John Carney

”اگر هم به آینده فکر می‌کرد، از روی غریزه احساس می‌کرد شکاف بین آن‌ها بسیار عمیق است و پلی که عشقشان بر روی این شکاف انداخته مثل رنگین‌کمانی موهوم و خیالی است.“ — تابستان، از ادیث وارتون

”بیایید به چیزها آن‌گونه که هستند نگاه کنیم. بعضی از ما به شهر مادری‌مان برگشته‌ایم چون نتوانسته‌ایم در جای دیگری پیشرفت کنیم. به نحوی با مشکل روبه‌رو شدیم... آن چیزهایی که در رؤیایشان به سر می‌بردیم تحقق نیافتند. اما این واقعیت که در جاهای دیگر شکست خورده‌ایم دلیل نمی‌شود که در اینجا هم با شکست مواجه شویم.“ — تابستان، از ادیث وارتون