Our Side of the Story

Do I ever say how much I adore kids?

I hope you had a good day, sleep well🖤

I don’t remember the last time I was at church, something to do with holding God responsible for the actions of his people. The feeling of being at home in church was long gone, haven’t had the rush of it since sophomore year in high school. Worship felt foreign to my soul, his word being preached stopped cracking my chest open. Instead it was just random biblical words flowing out of a random human. I became numb to his presence, which was a painful realization. Having lost the one loyal companion. I went to church yesterday, my limbs still tingle from the warmth I felt after years. The pastor said “You wouldn’t be who you are today if God hadn’t tested you, and he did because he loves you” My cheeks were wet from tears of another painful realization, I blamed God for all the wrong reasons and despite it he still held me and waited for me to come home. I felt like I was 16 again, vulnerable and surrendering at his feet.

Happy Saturday :)

“For you have been my help. I will rejoice in the shadow of your wings. My soul stays close to you. Your right hand holds me up.” Psalms 63: 7-8 Have a beautiful day loves🖤

Grateful for another day, መልካም ቀን :)

ሲፈጥረኝ ማውራት ይደክመኛል...ብዙ ቅርበት ከሌለንና መናገሬ አስፈላጊ ሆኖ ካልታየኝ እስከ ነገም ድረስ ለምን ሰው አያወራም ባደምጥ ይቀለኛል:: ሰሞኑን እንዲሁ ተለጉሜ ካጋጠመኝ ላጫውታችሁማ የሰው መዝገብ ቤት አጋጥሟችሁ አያውቅም? ስለምንም ጉዳይ ይሁን ስለማንም ህይወት የሚለው የማያጣ? የናንተን እንጃ እኔን ገጠመኝ...አንድ አንድ ሰው ግን😂 ልጅት እንድም ቀን ስለራሷ ህይወትም ሆነ ፋይዳ ስላላቸው ነገሮች አውርታም አታውቅ (በቅርበት ካወቅሗት ሳምንታት ቢቆጠሩ ነው) ይነጋል ይመሻል ከቁጥር የሚያልፉ እገሌዎች መነጋገርያ አርዕስት ይሆናሉ...ስንት ሚስጥራት ይበተናሉ...እርግጥ ሚስጥር ላይሆኑ ይችላሉ ግን እንደእኔ ለግል መያዝ አሉባቸው ብዬ የማስባቸው ነገሮች:: ታዲያ መጀመሪያ ሰሞን ብዙም ልብ አላልኩ ነበር ሲሰነብት ነው ነገሩ የገባኝ:: አምነዋት የልባቸውን ላጋሯት ምስኪኖችም አዘንኩ...ስንቱ ቤት ታሪካቸው እንደገባ አላወቁ:: ምን ልላችሁ ነው...እንደ ሀሜት አስቀያሚ ነገር የለም! ለማን ሚስጥሮቻችሁን እንደምታጋሩም መዝኑ😊

Q: What is the most influential book you ever read? A: They’re all jumbled up on me now, I can’t name one but currently on ግራጫ ቃጭሎች by አዳም ረታ I will post the most influential books I’ve read when I’m not half asleep :)

Q: Heyy Debbie What inspires you to write? A: usually things that catch me off guard but also the silliest and tiniest things like a bird crossing a street or kids playing or I don’t really have any poetic inspirations.

Q: Hey Debbie. I don't really have questions. I didn't know you had a channel until very recently. Glad to be in your channel. I just want to appreciate your writings. Good job👏 A: Appreciate you🤗

Q: Hey Debbie , i have been feeling low lately i have been through this in the past and i went through getting my self drunk and crying and i don't remember how but i got through it but now i don't know what to do i can't seem to shut my mind up to even sleep and it is the same pattern as the past , i don't want to go through that again , what should i do ? A: None of my routines would work for you but hugs🖤 Be easy on you, let time do it’s job and try to stay healthy.

Q: I like ur answer a lot✨♥️ and my question is we try for things to workout and we put so much effort to get what we want , is it unhealthy to try for people and to make effort for people to stay or ...? A: it’s understandable, we don’t want things to end and for people to leave but it’s a hard truth we should make peace with. Try not to end things with regrets and say what needs to be said. If it’s inevitable, let go.

Q: Which world do u think is better? The 'real' or the dream world? A: None?

Q: How do u reach out to people, when u are feeling low? How do u do it without feeling weak or like a failure? A: I do feel weak, that’s why I go to them. It’s because you’re incapable of handling whatever is pressing on you that you ask for help. If you trust them enough, then it’s okay for them to see little shades of your weak moments.

Q: What do you think about dating apps? :) A: Ah genuinely, I never was bothered enough to think about them so...

Q: You found out ur lover isn't in any religion but believes in God. Or he is agnostic.what would u do? A: Not easy but simple, I’d let him go.

Q: How do you deal with your mental health as a christian? Many people assume that if u are Christian you shouldn't struggle mentally and it made me to question my spiritual life many times, what do u think about this too? A: Probably one of the hardest things I had to face is this. Being a Christian doesn’t stop you from existing as a human, therefore you experience the things human beings are bound to experience. I promise you you’re not possessed as they say, or there’s no some ድግምት and መተት done on you. You’re just going through an illness which will be given a solution in process. As for the first question, I try hard to separate God from my struggles. The mere existence of my depression and anxiety doesn’t define him.

Q: Hey debbs How is you? The question I got for you is....Do you overthinking stuff? And if you do How do you manage that and feel better? A: I wouldn’t say I overthink like I used to but yes. Overthinking is a game your mind, fear of the future, previous traumas all team up and play against you. You can’t change anything about your yesterday but learn from it and try your very best to make your future better. Usually when I overthink there are too many voices in my head; “You’ll hurt the next person that comes into your life.” “Your grades are not enough” “You’re not fit enough to have dreams so big” Speak against these, affirm yourself in the warmest words you’d like to be comforted. Baby steps, I won’t say it’ll completely stop but you’ll see the progress :)

Q: Have you ever been in love? Like how you seem to be in your writings? A: What are y’all on today lol And yes of course.

Q: Hey Debbie. How do you deal your love life and the Christian Life together? A: Let me just pretend you didn’t assume I have a love life and take this as a general question. I don’t think there’s an essay worth answer for it but prayer should be a firm foundation for the relationship, and let the Bible guide you. When I say let the Bible guide you, I mean LET THE BIBLE GUIDE YOU. People try to shape scriptures into what’s comfortable for them so they’d feel less guilty for the sins they commit.