Haunted by lipgloss

Time was stopping Moving through you You dictated By what moved you Only Moving never thinking Match the sun that's slowly sinking At the hight of afternoon In the heat of summer evening Like a phoenix like a chemtrail like a wavelength no one's claiming

Who am I to need when I've needed so much Asked for so much What I've been given I'm not yet sure I may never know that either Until I'm dead. For now though What I do know is that I don't deserve you- Not you at your best in your splendour towering Eucalyptus trees that sway in my dominion Not you at your worst Totally on fire, unlivable unbreathable

There are things you still don't know about me Like sometimes I'm afraid my sadness is too big and that one day you might have to help me handle it But until then May I always keep my eyes level to this skyline Assessing the glittering new development Off of the coast of Long beach Never to heaven or revenant Because I have faith in man as strange as that seems In times like these And it's not just because of the warmth that I have found in your brown eyes Bit because I believe in the goodness in me That it's firm enough to plant a flag in Or a rosebud Or to build a new life

Say goodbye now No resisting Live your life like No one's listening Be the art that life is breathing Be the soul the world is living Do what you want For you only Not for giving Just for taking No one's listening

People think that I'm rich and iam but not how they think I have a truck with a gold key chain in the ignition And on the back of says : happy joyous and free happy and when I drive I think about the last time my friends were driving with me How the radio was so loud that we couldn't hear the words So we became the music happy

Toward a future place A world unknown to me Made of something surreal and dripping Flowers in solar system oversized You Vernon Dylan No words needed to sponge up the dark nights Shoulder to shoulder in factory light No explanation for the globes in my eyes Letting me be who I would have been If everything had turned out alright

You move like water sweet baby sweet waiter Making the night smile to no one you cater Silent woodworker from midnights till later My lover my laughter my armor my maker The way that I feel with you is something like aching Inside of my stomach the cosmos are baking