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Happy National Teachers' Month🤟

pl is ready for a walk

i can't sleep, sana di malate lol.

b/w nalang

I don't get his preset!!

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tyl, my sister is home now!

tyl, my sister is home now!

For the context she's my senior high friend (I'm not the father guys, baka isipin niyo, tulad nung nag dm 😭). She got pregnant by an abusive, manchild guy and got physical/verbal abuse + public shaming from their families. So ayun, the mental torment was so bad she resorted to self-harm and wanted to end everything. She decided to abort, and I'm pro-choice especially since her well-being was completely shattered. I was just a student at that time, but I didnt hesitate to give her my allowance since closest friend ko siya back then. Cause she mentioned the kid was really makapit despite everything. Luckily, the baby survived and looks so healthy now. Super happy for them huhuhu. Ang random nito honestly.

fast hand del, thankfully na up nila.🥲

hope her baby is smart and healthy.😭

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And then the part that really fucking pissed me off was that this guy basically abandoned her. Far away from us. And without even properly telling us that he couldn't take care of her anymore or that he was done with the relationship. Like, what the fuck? You helped bring this person away from her family, you became part of the reason she adjusted her entire life, and then when things became difficult, you just... leave? And now she's in this fucking apartment that was supposed to be theirs, except now it's basically the apartment we won't share. And I know my sister. We grew up in the same household. Tigas-tigasan. She'll say she's okay kahit halatang hindi. So I messaged her, nangangamusta lang ako, and then I just fucking said it straight away, "Sunduin na kita." And she was about to cry. She was holding her tears in, but you can see it. You know when someone is trying so hard not to break down in front of you? That's what she looked like. She looked pale. She looked tired. Sobrang lungkot ng aura niya.

Because that was the first time I saw my sister begging for someone. And I don't know, maybe that's what broke me the most. Because you know your younger sibling in a certain way, right? You remember them as this annoying little kid, the one you protect, the one who's always just there. And then suddenly, you're seeing them becoming a completely different person because someone else has the power to hurt them. And you realize that no matter how much you want to protect them, there are some lessons that you can't stop them from experiencing. You can warn them a thousand times. and i really did.. a lot of times, on every conversation we had, i even said to her the last time, to just go home na, "zaria misses you na, here kana beng, dito ka lumaban, i'll sponsor your needs till maka land to your new career" but she refused., you can tell them, "Don't do this. Build yourself first. Take care of yourself first." But when someone is in love or at least when they think they're in love...sometimes feelings are louder than logic. And that's exactly what happened. I told her before, so many times, if you really love that guy, build yourself first. Help yourself first. Make sure you have something for yourself before you start giving everything to another person. Kasi you can't keep pouring everything into someone when you're slowly emptying yourself. But she listened to her feelings. And maybe I understand that, because this was her first in a lot of things. Her first serious relationship, her first time leaving home, her first time building a life with someone. And when it's your first, sometimes you don't know the difference between love and losing yourself.

I don't want to hate the entire existence of this guy, but I hate what happened to my sister while she was with him. I hate seeing how much of herself she was willing to give just to make that relationship work. So going back, she forgot to log out of her Chrome profile, and there were traces of their conversations. I opened them, and honestly... I felt so fucking sad.

but yea , i know she's smart, I know she's capable, but part of me was really scared because that was her first time leaving her comfort zone, leaving home, being far away from us. And I think what gave her the courage to do that was because she believed someone was there to walk with her. That fucking manchild boyfriend of hers.