Naivety✍️

Last day In my vegetative state, At the end of my journey, I saw the leaves turned green, Seemed bright and pretty. Were they waiting for my burial, Yesterday they seemed too fragile, For years I had to wait for them, But came when I am about to die. Did my tears gave them life? Or did my sorrows helped them out, She took the beauty I sought, I was left to die. Will you welcome me to be in you, I pray that the fall brings you, Fall in my failed last minute, When all the liars shove me into soil. Will you enjoy if I were your source, A source needed for you to live, I was driven away from this world, Might I be needed in your dream? And dear soil, will you welcome me? ✍Benon/Me

Piteously loved Cater me with lies, I am all for it. Sway me with words, Happy to have it. Drag me to the edge, To the edge of madness, If I only have you, I would gladly vanish. Petty it may seem, Foolish I may look, For those who wouldn’t know, For those who never met you. Feed me what you want, Damage me how you like, Piss me off often, Till I lose my chill, Unstable I may seem. You see... Shrewd I am, Clearly I know, If i lose you, I wouldn’t be whole. So.... Petty it may seem, Foolish I may look, For those who wouldn’t know, For those who never met you. ✍Benon/Me

Dusk....Night I found my eyes reaching, Pleasure was found, While looking at you. I wait excitedly every single day, Seeking your presence, Whenever I feel lonely. Shooting your last ray of light, Onto my face, I've come to realize that I've you, When everything fades away. Your greetings is like a warm hug, Comforts my heart with your breezy night. You see me from a far, With your sparkly eyes, If I ever feel lost, And everything seems blank, You enlighten my mind, When you twinkle...oh bright light. And if I ever feel sad, You'll listen to my worries, Solace achieved sitting under your gleam. Smile fills my face, When I see you spending regards, From the genius creator, From my loving God. ✍Benon/Me

After all I'm a human being I had time to read their thoughts, Some days even making time to understand their wants, Searching for their happiness, Wishing them all the good things, That I want for myself. Never greedy, I bless, With no other intentions, Loving them for all they are, Dedicated to be in their ups and downs. ... Don't get me wrong, I do want their joy, But sometimes... My selfless heart begins to cry, Seeking for warmth, Pursuing back what I give, Wanting to receive, Longing to Listen, Words of affection, Words of love, Just like I shower them with it. The meddler my brain, Starts to question this helpless heart, " So, you were expecting, So, you did have intentions, So, you were like just everyone, Like those you hate, So, you were lying, So, you were no better..." My heart then replies, " I loved with my whole heart, With all my power, soul and mind, Not wanting anything back, Giving yet without receiving, Adoring them like myself. But once in while, Don't I want a hug? Don't I want to hear their compliment? Don't I want their care? Is it wrong seeking their love? After all I'm not a tree, I do have feelings too." Moral of the poem: Please don't shy to express your love fo those you hold dear...who knows what may happen, I assure you nothing lasts long so tell them that you are thankful, that they mean something in your life, that they have place in your heart. Show them what they mean to you, love them like you love yourself.....Just like Jesus taught us to do... ☆I am so thankful for those of you that stayed with me through highs and lows......May the abundant everlasting blessing of the lord accompany your life. Love you guys. And I truly wish that I have time to give what I recieved, loving with all my power, mind, soul and might like I love myself. ✍️Benon/Me

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What good will it do even if I am a doctor unless I save someone I love....... "They say knowing someone fully is impossible but it seems like I sought for the impossible. All I knew about Layla was her beautiful smile. I thought I knew her well till I found out she took her life. Might her joy illustrate her pain or discomfort? How would I know now? She is gone forever... Did i ask her how she truly felt everytime we met? I should have noticed when she changed the topic whenever i asked her about herself, her family or anything that might help me to know her well. As If i tried my best... Finally, her death revealed the truth she was hiding, that she needed help, that she craved for attention, that she wanted someone to listen to her wholeheartedly. Foolish me, I never got the chance to do any of that. All I did was asking her some nonsense philosophical questions which triggered her loneliness..." ( Mason laughed loudly as his tears run down his cheeks while holding her picture to his heart reminiscing their last conversation ) Moral of the story: It doesn't take you to be a psychologist to know whether your friend or fiancee needs help....the only thing you need is a loving heart and open ears. Who knows what everyone goes through everyday. Text your friends and ask them if they are really fine, if they need help, if they need someone to talk to. Don't regret afterwards... ☆ To those who are feeling lonely in this maddening world I just wanna say I am here for you... ✍Benon/Me

Finally, I need peace in life..........that's why I want to reduce my circles and connections as much as possible. It's draining the heck out of me.

What I do every single day. The world just got boring.

And Lastly.......the waiting will come to an end.🙌🙌

I love who I am not I wanna be short, Wanna be tall, Wanna be cute, Wanna be cool. Wanna be polite, Wanna be honest, Wanna be invisible, Wanna be huge, Wanna be great, Wanna be seen, Wanna taste fame. I wanna dress fine, Wanna to impress, The people of this world. Can't I? Why can't I be handsome? Why can't I be famous? Why won't people love me? Why won't I become great? What's holding me back? I don't love who I am now, Wanna change real fast, Must I need a godmom? Why can't I? I wanna be rich, Wanna be pretty, I long to be loved, I long to seek attention. Can't I? But, why would I want all this? Why would I want more? Why must I be greedy? Why must I seek a lot? Why must I let the needs control my soul this much? Why can't I sit back and love myself the way I am? Why can't I betray the world and get comfy in my zone? Why would I thrive to change to what wasn't meant to be? Just cool... Cool down my heart, But, It seems like I love who I am not, Can't accept who I am, Rather fight to mend which, Can't be able to fix. ✍Benon/Me

I'm a simple guy Isn't peace what I treasure most? Isn't my comfort keeping my friends close? Won't a big circle of people make me tremble? Won't blabbering for hours make me bore? Am I that hard to get used to? I think not. Isn't my joy to bless everyone with my smile? Isn't my glee to enjoy my space? Won't I love who loves me back? Won't I adore who loathes me a lot? Am I that complex to understand? I think not. When you know me, You'll love me. When you seek to understand, You might hate my gut. But I'm always open, With a heart full of love, For those who want to dwell, I'll be a hut. If you don't want my company, I'll gladly leave, But I'm a simple guy, I'll slowly depart, When I see a lie. ✍Benon/Me

Life of the confused Bending the distorted, Mending the fixed, Becoming what I already am, Visualizing what's already there. These days I easily become overwhelmed, When I know this shouldn't be it, The way to freedom seemed to be challenging, But truly it's never been clear. Mind turning vigorously, Heart throbbing continuously, But the answer is already near, Yet I can't seem to see it. Why? I cry when it's hot, The heat seemed to feed into my wounds, I weep when it's cold, The chill couldn't keep my bed warm, I wail when it's fine, Thinking that the storm is already on its way, I mourn when it's not, Hoping happiness would come to my place, Might it be the case? Anyways........ I may belong to the wilderness, Maybe that would help me heal, I may belong to the confused, Might it cure my state of mind, I may belong to the unknown, Vivid pictures might scare my heart, If not blurry will be able to solve this thought, Of this confused lad. ✍Benon/Me

Joy is a place Enjoyment to its fullest, Where peace is abundant, I bulid my tent there, Happiness is felt all over the place. Life seemed to give meaning, I forgot my misery, Smile overpowered frown, Soul trained to be stable. Nothing can take my laughter, Might it be a wave or drought, Since I've them, All I know is to joke, My peace is restored. Enjoyment to its fullest, Where peace is abundant, My heart yearn for that place, Longing to remain with them. I do have a secret place, Where I've found my source of joy, A joy called family, A joy called home. ☆ This so called home might not last long, so please y'all acknowledge that place(Home). Time will come when you come to regret that you were not be able to enjoy it as much as you wanted to because you weren't much involved and available enough. FAMILY IS EVERYTHING........🧡 ✍Benon/Me

Am I broken? Believed to be a success, Failure wasn't a choice, Winning pressured by society, Downgrade wasn't the way, Failure wasn't the say. Bet, shame controlled my being, Bet, reality did its trick, Bet, losing seemed like a curse, For which I couldn't undo the mess. Success seemed too far to reach, Self-worth hit its lowest, Confidence left its place, Anxiety took the stage, Victory was shadowed with disgrace. Won't you free me society? Won't you leave me alone? I don't have a luck by my side, So is that my fault? Success abandoned me, Victory turned his back, Fear turned to me, And said, I'm all you got. ✍Benon/Me

"Love comes from ignorance." ✍benon/Me

I prophecy I know this is just the beginning, To a far more glorious one, I have run the hardest course, So it must be the time, To get my gift in life. Tears were my food, Mumbling, my daily routine, Yet, I couldn't halt the race with my might, Which I still tried. Craved for solace in people, They couldn't become my answer, I've felt like this might be the end, Couldn't see the miracle that was coming in my way. Oh precious heart, rejoice all night, Just believe the light is at a near sight. Smile, Oh mind, You're not wrong, My winter will change to fall. Dim light was what my day looked like, All black and white, But these days 'am seeing colorful bliss, Since my summer has arrived. ✍Benon/Me

Be with me Embodiment of beauty, Yes you, Your chest is my safe place. The avalanche just passed like a fly, Yes by you, I've borne it with grace. Catching my breath whenever I see you, Yes you, Your scent covers my disgrace. Conversing had meaning after you, Only with you, I've enjoyed the nonsense prattle. Lit my day with your embrace, I've come to know your influence, Alone, I can't handle the waves, Will fade and be a short lived craze. Torrent of my emotions, You change me in a brisk, Would I be me, If left deserted? ✍Benon/Me