🦴 - Dyno's stinky house (SFW/SSFW)

anyways.. i will slowly post art i havent been posting, here is one of them

warning: vent, transphobia Okay, i seriously didnt want to vent anymore, but something happened today and it's affected me in a point that i'm really considering if at this point, living is worth anymore. After 2 weeks since i officially started transitioning, i sent a message to my class' group. A small message saying basically that i'd like to be traten as a guy because i'm trans. One of my friends told me that one of my classmates made fun of me in front of her whole bus, READING MY MESSAGE (they share the bus).. and that same girl has made fun of me more times already. Where i study, this shouldn't happen, because i study art and usually art students are REALLY cool. And yes, most of them are and i really like my class, but that really made me feel like the whole world is falling on me. I wish nothing of this happened. I wish i was a cis guy. I wish it wasnt that hard, specially with this now. I'm very sorry. I just feel like my life is meaningless at this point, if i'm disgusting after all. My existence is a shit.

one thing that comforts me is that, one of my aunts has a son that is trans and she is kinda.. transphobic. and my mom fought with her A LOT because of how transphobic my aunt was. Everytime my aunt said his deadname she was like "it's dANIEL!!!1!1"

for my trans folks here, how did you come out with your parents? and how did it go? my mom is 100% ally with trans, but she also always wanted a girl and among all my brothers, im the only "girl" and im scared she might get very sad for not having a girl anymore. Im sure she will accept me, but im very scared, so i would like to hear your experiences and how it went during the time <3 sorry for being such a pain in the ass and making small issues so big. I promise im trying🫩 AUGH

yesterday i was talking with my bro and i doodled a new idea for my truesona. a dino-boar

so.. is amino really gone?

i think thats enough, thanks a lot bbies ❤️‍🩹 tomorrow at class i will try to do sketches for all of them <3 thank you for the refs and sweet comments. 🥰

send refs, something happened and i feel awful. Need something to brighten my mood a bit

MY FRIEND IS SO FUCKING TALENTED OH MY GOD

🌳 ~ Path in the woods ~🌳

can you suggest color palettes 🥀 i have no idea any palette is welcome i literally dont know

more details and the lines will be finished... +i'll reply to your sweet comments later! thanks a lot for your support babies🥺❤

+ alt version

finished the main lines yippeee

sorry for getting so depressing all of a sudden- i hate asking for help, i always fought this alone, but i cant deal with it anymore, not alone, and i really dont want to put my friends in my own troubles because i know damn well that they are fighting their own stuff. But i think it isnt healthy to deal with this alone anymore. Its been 10 years since i struggle with depression, BPD and anxiety, and 6 years since i have a lot of issues with my gender, its getting exhausting to be alone on this but i cant ask my friends for help because i dont wanna be annoying-

if someone here is trans (which its clear), i need advice. I feel like i might be doing a mistake, that i should keep living as a "girl" to make everyone happy, pleasured, to not annoy anyone with my stupid thoughts. I know that if i tell my mom she would be supportive but also so disappointed.. i dont know. But i know that if i keep living as a girl, i wont be happy at all with myself. I feel like it was an identity that i forced, that it isnt me. I dont wasnt to be trans, not in a cis woman way, but in a way that I wish i was a real boy, that people didnt have to mind about my pronouns, without people asking me about what is between my legs, about people saying "but you look so girly".. I really need help. At this point the only things i like about my body is a silly moustache and my strength. Every other thing- i find it awful.

+ i also feel pretty lonely lately and i hate getting annoying with my friends because im a pain in the ass, so- if you ever want someone to chat with or even play roblox or repo, im up to it, i really want to make new friends and make a bond

*ugh* wip of the design for my selfsona If i can be honest, ive been a bit off because, as hard it is to say, ive been struggling quite a lot. Its been really hard to me to draw lately -even though i did because comms are important- but my motivation has been terribly bad because of school. I barely talk about this wuth my friends in a context that isnt joking, but im really struggling with suicidal thoughts -again- and depression. That sums up with the dysphoria. The feeling that this might be a mistake because people dont take me seriously, that i dont pass at all, the dysphoria- its consuming me. I wish i was a real boy. I wish it was easier. Anyways, i dont want to get all depressing and stuff. Between tomorrow and monday i will get back to posting what ive been doing these days thanks a lot for reading if you did, and dont worry about me. I always find a way to fight by myself. I hate asking for help as much as i need it, so i learnt to fight it alone. Hoping you're having an amazing day ❤

also, turns out i have a very bad pharyngitis and fever 😞 luckily i have medication!