Nocturne

هر بار که با آدم‌های مهربون روبه‌رو می‌شم، اونایی که لبخندشون بوی عشق بی‌بهونه می‌ده و نگاهشون با خنده می‌درخشه، دلم مثل برگ‌های پاییزی توی نسیم می‌لرزه و می‌افته.

ولی چیزی که دخترا واقعاً احتیاج دارن، دوستی‌های واقعی و بی‌حسادت کنار خودشونه. دوستایی که وقتی می‌درخشی، قشنگ‌تر تشویقت کنن، وقتی می‌افتی دستتو بگیرن، و وقتی گم شدی، یادت بیارن کی هستی. دخترا به اون رفاقتایی نیاز دارن که بدون رقابت و قضاوت باشه، پر از انرژی خوب، با کوچیکترین دستآوردهات تشویقت کنن، خنده‌های از دل، و ساپورت خالص. رفاقتی که بهت حس خونه بده؛ جایی که می‌دونی همه‌چی امنه و لازم نیست نقش بازی کنی.

Honestly, I’ve always been drawn to villains in movies, the ones real enough to know exactly who they are. They don’t beg for approval, they don’t fake purity. They don’t play hero just to save some damsel who’ll fall in love with them or to have their face plastered on wallpapers. They exist as themselves, raw and unapologetic. and that’s what makes them magnetic. And if they ever found themselves walking a different path, let them be. It doesn’t erase who they were, it just proves they had the freedom to choose.

Me alone in my room thinking if people could drop their performative acts of humanity, we’d finally see who actually cares and who just wants the applause. who helps because it’s in their nature, and who does it only when there’s an audience. The masks would fall, and what’s left wouldn’t be pretty, but at least it would be real.

The real appeal of vampirism to me isn’t the immortality, it’s the fact that you can just decide to disappear into a 50–100 year nap whenever you feel like it.

The devil couldn’t reach me, so he gave me a heart that feels too deeply and a mouth that cannot give it voice.

the bar is so low that basic decency feels like witchcraft.

Me seeing through everyone but acting blind cause nobody asked.

“If you’re friends with half the world, that’s an instant no from me.”