that all this while, they gave me everything I wanted as long I did not cause any troubles. They were too busy making money but they lacked giving me attention that I deserve as their only child. I tried to reminisce on the good memories about our family but there was something blocking my thoughts. There was too much pain to handle. I crashed to the ground in agony. Later, I cried myself to sleep.
I never thought my parents could do such things to me. They did not even talk to me. They abandoned me. They were looking at me like I did not even exist. If I wanted to eat, I cooked for myself and went back to my room. Then, I heard they blamed each other for raising a rebellious child like me. I started to question myself with tons of questions. Am I really a rebel? Finally, I made up my mind. I wanted to run away from home. I packed all my essential belongings, preparing for my runaway. I waited until the end of the movement control order. As a teenager, I knew that running away from home was not a wise decision but I did it anyway. I locked my room, and left a note for them. Then, I fled through the window and escaped from the house just like the poem ‘What happened to Lulu?’ written by Charles Causley. At first, I was confused about my feelings when leaving the house. I only cared about my mother but when I remembered what she did to me that day, I got rid of my thoughts on turning back. If they said I am a rebellious child even though the truth is untold, then I wanted to prove that I really became a rebel because of them.
I started my journey by walking far away from home. All the roads were operating like before. I then stopped at a few shops and asked if I can get a job and a place to live. I was lucky enough because an old lady was kind enough to let me stay and work as her housekeeper. During my stay here, I realized there were a lot of posters about me. Not only that, I also went viral on social media. When the old lady heard about the news, she asked me a few questions as she said we looked identical. I simply said the person is not me and I know nothing about it. I did not mean to lie but I did not want her to worry. But when I gave it for a second of thoughts, my parents seemed like they were worried sick about me.
Was that for real or it just an act to bring me home so that they can torture me mentally? I cannot believe it. Deep in my heart I slightly felt remorseful for making such a harsh decision but somehow, I felt like I should not feel anything. They did not love me. So, they deserve it, right? I did not know whether I should return or not. I left them without hesitation. Will they get mad if I return? Will they beat me? I guessed running away was the best option for now. After I received my salary, I moved out. I continue my journey. Inside my thoughts, there were a lot of questions lingering inside my head. Do they really deserve it? Even if they treat me like that, they are still my biological parents. My ego and pride must have hurt them. What about what they did to me? Have they realised what they did really hurt me to the core? I cried and lost inside my thoughts. I was dazed and confused. Not long after that, I heard a screeching sound as I was on the middle of the road and my sight faded to pitch black.
When I woke up, I was in a hospital. My body ached so bad. I pushed a ring button beside my bed and called for a nurse. I was hospitalised about a week. After having some check up, I was allowed to rest. I tried to recall my memory about what had happened. It was my fault crossing the road without caring about my safety. In the end, I was hit by a car. Fortunately, my injuries were not so bad as there was no sign of internal bleeding or memory loss. I get out of my bed, slowly walking out the room. Right after I stepped out the room, what I saw made me astonished. It was my parents ! They were crying, especially my mother. She asked the doctor about her daughter. Then, the doctor just shook his head and said they had tried their best to save her. I became mo