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🇬🇧 Today is the right time for the ancient celebration of Vinternätter/Vetrnætr (Winter Nights). Ynglingasaga by Snorri Sturluson do mention a blót called Winter Nights. The Winter Nights Blót is referred as the first blót of Odin and occurs three full moons before our Heathen Juól (Yule). 2023 is also a lunisolar leap year which have thirteen full moons instead of twelve, and that is why this year's Winter Nights Blót occur today, the 28th of October here in Scandinavia. This blót marks the beginning of the winter half year, and is one of the most important celebrations in our old heathen calendar. In the earlier Pagan lunisolar calendar, the Winter Nights Blót occured at full moon in the month of Haustmánuður - the harvest month which falls around September/October. However, in our current Gregorian calendar, the first day of winter is considered to be the 14th of October in Scandinavia. Winter Nights and the more famous Álfablót is two separate blóts and do not occur at the same time. Álfablót is a private gathering for family and relatives, and occurs a little bit later this year in Sweden. In the Icelandic sources, the Dísablót is also mentioned in connection with Winter Nights, but the Winter Nights Blót is mainly dedicated to a good year ahead as well as to the winter gods such as Ullr and Skaði, and is the very starting point for the winter half year and the first day of winter. The blót lasts for three days starting today on the night of the full moon. Blessed Winter Nights Blót! 🌕

When i was a kid my Mom would always play Bob Seger in the car. I hated it at the time. But as i've gotten older I began to love the Man's music. I guess as a kid i couldn't relate. But as a Man, it's almost like every song was written just for me. I feel like i'm in a really weird place tonight. I got off work, went home, showered & ate and then went and sat out back just taking in the Autumn rain and trying to just "breathe". I felt something I haven't felt in many years. I was 32 the last time. It was somewhere between fear & anger, restless & anxious, tired & without the ability to get comfortable. This song came to mind. I gave up riding motorcycles years back, because for me it is hard to separate a good ride from MC culture. And having been a part of one of the "Big 5", that makes it all the more amplified. To sum it up simply, i beat a trumped up arrest by a notorious 3-letter agency that sent friends & Brothers away for varying degrees of time. Thankfully, they are all free today. But when my case was being sorted i saw my then 2 yr old Daughters life flash before my eyes. I saw myself like George Jung. An old Man hallucinating in some prison yard that my Grown Daughter was coming to visit. Well, she never went to see George. And i knew mine would not come to see me. Nor would i wish for her to. And i swore if i got clear of those VERY bogus charges, i'd change direction & become a better Man and Father. And upon being cleared much to the dismay of LEO, i did just that. But it hasn't been all civilian life appeared to be cracked up to be. I miss the road. I miss being a Gypsy. But more than that, I miss the Brotherhood. REAL Brotherhood. A lot of Men on our Heathen and/or Pro-White circles ache for "Brotherhood". But most don't even know what that really is. I however, do know. I miss having Men to my right and left, front and back who I knew would have my back no matter what. I've had those Men literally give me a shirt off their back. I had those Men split whatever cash they had with me and i with them. I had Men who with everything to lose in life stood their ground against massive odds simply because I was their Brother. I don't post much online, here or elsewhere, with the exception of some humorously offensive shit-posting on twitter or YT. I can't get on board with Men (or Women) who just sit and post angry shit and do nothing in real life to rectify things. I feel drained reading most Telegram channels. And this isn't an indictment of anyone specific. This is in general. I get i am older than a lot of people on here. I was already in my 40's when i got my first pc. My entire life was led in the real world with real world blessings and consequences. I have lost almost all hope in both the Heathen and the "Pro-White" communities. The depressing ass black pilling is bad enough, but the excuse making and inaction drum up a loathing in me almost on par with that i feel towards our "enemies". Again, this isn't aimed at anyone or any group. Nor is it an across the board kinda thing. I met some amazing people in all sides of our sphere. But i can't "Live" online in the same never ending bubble of "Anger, depression, shit-post, repeat". My Dad used to have a saying "Shit or get off the pot. And make sure you're not putting up your own roadblacks". There is truth to that. So back to sitting out watching the rain and thinking of this song...I just wanted to get on a Bike and GO. North, South, East, West. Didn't matter. Just go and find my "center" again. I haven't felt that in years and the last time I actually did it.

Rode from NY to California. Crossed a bridge in western illinois so low it felt like you were riding on the lake it was over. Came out of Omaha, Nebraska and ran into a lightning storm on the plain that looked like spider webs in the sky. Switch backs thru the Rockies where German-style houses appeared here and there way up in the mountains or turqoius colored lakes way down below. The desert of Nevada at dawn and felt it go from 30 degrees to 80 in less than an hour. And the Sierra Nevada Mountains on into Northern California was shear bliss. I feel like everything in my life right now is like going uphill against the wind. I long for freedom. My "spirit" feels like it's being strangled. Sure, i have great kids, a good woman, a plan for the future, strong beliefs, and so on. Ghandi once said "Be the change you wish to see in the world". Easier said than done. I've learned that. This isn't a black-pill post. I feel more like a butterfly who is about to break free from it's chrysalis. I need....something !

Hope she's hugging it goodbye. Lol Thanksgiving is only a month and a half away. 😎