Adam.

‏تَعال شاركَني السِجائر والأغاني والحَزن السَخيف هذا اللَيل طويل وبارِد ، ومُخيف

رغم الإفصاح والوضوح أحيانًا، دائمًا فيه كلمات لاتنطق، شعور لايفصح عنه، هزائم بينك وبين ذاتك، صمتك عنها يقوّيك

“راح تمطر”💔😫

" ‏هوّن عليك فإنّ الله فارجها ‏فوحده ربي يدري مخارجها ‏وافرح لها إن اشتدّت فشدتها ‏علامة من الله إيذانا بفُرجتها "

-ALI

دزولي اغنية @hxxxs

ادعولي ياشباب 🖤🖤

Fuck I jus wanna go back in time to one of our memorie and stay there. But it’s life fuck I don’t wanna live without you. Even if I can I don’t want to. Fuck I’m late to school.. fuck I smell her perfume here fuck is she here.. fuck I’m tired of looking she is not here I should go to class.. fuck I’m back in my dark room. I should watch a movie and get to sleep I’m really tired. Fuck that’s my life? How ? Fuck I should change I should just wish her happiness because I love her. Fuck I want her to be happy with me. Fuck. Adam you can’t make her happy maybe her first love will make her happy. She really loved him. Fuck forget it just. Fuck.. nothing just. Fuck it. I hope she will be happy. It’s okay you’ll live Adam you’re a man jus be strong. Fuck.. she use to tell me that she is my strength. Every time I get really sad she use to hug me. How can it be lie. Fuck I want her to hug me now really hard and tell me that she is here. Fuck Adam she is not here anymore. Fuck why are you crying you’re a man be a man. Fuck this is not my first time crying.. hahaha.. fuck I cried a lot. This time felt different. Fuck I say that everyday. Fuck I should take a shower and get to sleep. Fuck I have a lot of pictures of her in my phone. I should delete all of them if I wanna forget her.. fuck she was a crazy person hahahaha.. fuck. Fuck I said I should delete them. Fuck who can delete them from my soul. I should just go to sleep tonight. Fuck I can’t sleep I should call her. Fuck she is talking to him she won’t even answer you. You’re nothing fuck. Fuck I should go to sleep.

Fuck I hate the way she use to look at me with fuck I hate every single moment that I thought I was important to her fuck I hate her so much but in the same time I love her. I hate that feeling fuck. I don’t wanna feel again I don’t wanna feel that pain fuck I can’t stop that pain I can’t stop my anger fuck. I should take a rest. Fuck I should be happy I can forget her she was a liar. She lied about her feelings I should move on all the moments we had together it was all a lie. Fuck I was really honest how can she do that to me. I thought she loved me. No she was a liar she was… fuck I love her I still fuck I should go to sleep I hope I don’t dream about her… fuck I dreamt about her again what can I do. Fuck maybe I should jus go out with my friend. Fuck my friends are busy maybe I should go out alone so I can listen to my music, I’ll be alright… fuck now I’m in my room. Why is my room always dark. Fuck I hate the light. Fuck why I can’t stop thinking about her. I should go sit with my family for a little. Fuck why do I smell her perfume fuck I should go to sleep. Fuck I don’t wanna sleep I’ll jus dream about her. Fuck should send her a message. Fuck what am I thinking about she don’t even want me in her life fuck why am I thinking about her all the time… maybe she is thinking about me fuck how can all the memories we had together can be a lie. Maybe she’ll remember something we had together and she will come back.. fuck no I don’t want her anymore why am I even saying that fuck I should talk to girls to forget her yeah that will work. Fuck I don’t know how to talk to girls. She was the only one I knew how to talk to fuck I don’t need to talk to anyone. Let’s watch a movie I heard about a movie named “the notebook” fuck it’s a love movie no let’s watch a funny movie fuck I hate funny movies let’s just watch “ the notebook” maybe When I see a happy ending I’ll be happy.. fuck it feels like me and her but I wasn’t her first love fuck. Fuck I hate it why Am I thinking like that she is nothing to me fuck Adam you should think about yourself man… yeah I remembered I have a homework to do.. okay I’m done. Fuck I should write. Something to make me feel better… fuck I wrote 7 letters about me and her. Fuck it’s good to write about what you feel but in the same time you will remember everything with the person you love I don’t know why I feel happy. But sad in the same time fuck I should take a rest it was a long day I should call my friend Ahmed he always makes me laugh. Fuck maybe he is busy I should just text him he will call me when he’s free. I’m going to sleep.. fuck it’s 3:49 am she didn’t sent me any message or call. Fuck she is gone fuck I hate it she is gone. She is gone she’s happy with him right now I don’t even think about me. I should go to sleep. Fuck I can’t sleep anymore let’s watch some reels on Instagram… fuck I hate all the songs that reminding me of her I should pray and go back to sleep.. Fuck it’s just 9:00 am fuck another day I should do something today. Fuck I wanna see her I miss her a lot. Fuck no I should stay away from her forget her fuck why can’t I just forget her fuck what can I do. Fuck I should go back to sleep for now.. fuck it’s 11:00am ok let’s jus get up and go sit with my family for a little see if they need something. Fuck I didn’t eat for 2 days now I need to get something to eat.. fuck she use to wake me up every morning fuck I miss her voice so much fuck I love her fuck I hate everything without her why why. Fuck I should jus go to my room fuck everything in my room reminding me of her where should I go. God please please just make me forget her please. Please I need your help. I hate her she lied to me I should be happy fuck should jus I don’t know. When will it end fuck I hate me. I want my heart jus to stop fuck why can’t it just stop. I wanna tell you that I miss you. I love you. I hate when I wake up in the middle of the night and not seeing any message from you. I really wanted to make you happy why did you leave me alone didn’t you promised me that we will stay together forever.

‏"تمنيّتُ اللّقاء وكان ظنّي ‏بأن تأتِي الحياةُ بما أظنُّ ‏فخانتني الحياةُ وتاهَ دَربي ‏وظلَّ القلبُ في صَدرِي يئنُّ"

‏كم مرّةٍ فيها اقتربتُ.. وتبعدين ‏وعليَّ دونَ مُبررٍ تتثاقلين ‏ ‏وإذا سألتكِ عن غيابكِ مرّةً ‏فبكذبةٍ مكشوفةٍ تتعذرين ‏ ‏تستعذبينَ تشوّقي وتحرّقي ‏وتقرّ عينكِ حينَ يغلبُني الحنين ‏ ‏شيءٌ عجيبٌ! أيّ حبٍّ تدّعين؟ ‏إنّ الغرامَ بريءُ ممّا تفعلين

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