Mane's Creative Ventures 🦄

I chose a strange week to come out to the rest of my family they'll come around eventually. but it sucks for now.

Comments on new posts should now be enabled~ As usual feel free to just ping @maneframe directly anyways 💙

Comments on new posts should now be enabled~ As usual feel free to just ping @maneframe directly anyways 💙

Flay again~ refusing to use the front door at any social gathering

Tempo's Azure 🧡

Flay~ 💙

https://picarto.tv/Maneframe Stream's live

Taxes and debt will soon drain me to zero dollars in my bank account so I'm doing a sketch stream to get myself back on level ground~ Submit your slot requests here: https://forms.gle/fS8oZDqPL1SmjR4U8 keep an eye out for the stream within the next hour or two: https://picarto.tv/Maneframe

Addrady~💙

Chefobg and Clapperson~

Howlitzer's Aurum I need to do more surreal stuff, I used to draw it pretty frequently years back

https://picarto.tv/Maneframe taking commissions in stream (not paying attention to telegram for a bit ❤️), $39 USD for something pretty lax and doodly- SFW or tasteful nude, bondage gear is fine too. Just wanna get myself moving and pricing them cheap to keep my nerves down :3

Hello all! I wanted to give some updates since it's been a while, art posts have been seldom, and some have asked me if I'm okay. The diagnosis isn't official yet but my psychiatrist and therapist both agree there's a good chance I have PTSD. I've actually been pretty happy the past 18 months but still flounder to work more than a few hours per week (always comparing myself to the span of time in which I happily worked 40-50 hours on art and felt great about it). I had somehow forgotten that I was often intensely miserable till just a couple years ago. The anxiety I have around my artwork is nondescript and nebulous, and I'd been focused on trying to treat that as a behavior instead of digging into any underlying cause. I feel bad that I've been posting about my struggles with art for years and still haven't figured it all out. I legitimately believed I was just dealing with very stubborn maladapted habits from hurts that had already healed. We had a few clues, in certain settings I'm very competent, praised, and reliable while in others I'm frequently dysfunctional. long story short; we dug up a lot of repressed trauma. I've had very vivid flashbacks a few times now, abuses from 11-15 years ago feel as fresh and dark as the day they occurred. I've had panic attacks almost daily for the past month. I am very tired and spend a lot of time in bed. the nebulous anxiety is a lot more clear and I've become more aware of how my art was a vehicle through which I tried and failed to create self worth to compensate for the worthlessness I'd felt. as such, drawing over the past 7 years frequently causes associated feelings of failure to bubble up. Isolation, being raised by a clinical narcissist, infidelity of a parent, emotional and physical abuse, getting groomed at 17, dysphoria, feeling rejected by family, shame, failures through college, debilitating art injury while getting called a deadbeat, a brush with suicide. It all just kind of stacked on top of eachother reaffirming over and over again that I'm worthless trash, a nuisance people feel obligated to endure, a disappointment. I've maintained for years now if it wasn't for a couple key friends and finding my relationship with God, I'd be dead or close to it by now Despite all this I feel very positive about my prognosis; but it will take time work thru. I think my subconscious buried as much of this as possible until a time where I felt safe enough to process it all and heal for real. I'm beginning to see myself through a new lens; my passion is stronger than my pain. I didn't lose my tenacity like I'd thought. Even while limited by constant burnout I stuck with art and tried to make it work. Transition and furry communities have been amazing boons to my self worth. I'm grateful, honestly. This pain is humbling and insightful. Everything I've been through in life has led me to this beautiful place i'm in now, where I can have a plant on my desk next to a sunny window and be surrounded by amazing critters and queerdos that love me for me. I will be posting sketch openings in my telegram channels and avoiding larger painted works for a while after I finish the few still on my list. in the meantime I've been spending a lot of time in unity working on VRChat avatar controllers and menus, and I'm now learning blender and substance. I've dabbled in high poly sculpts for years and 3D doesn't carry the same baggage and burnout. I'd like to learn how to animate and do custom avatars because of all of this, I am very low on funds, mostly my own fault for being glued to my bed and phone so often. I rely on donations for 15% of my income year to year and this community has been a massive blessing and I thank you <3 I've been avoiding asking for help for some time out of desire to fend for myself but I still seem unable. If you would like to contribute and help with the high costs of transition, taxes, debt, and goth shit; I would be eternally grateful <3 https://maney.carrd.co/ y'all, I finally know what's wrong with be and it's so liberating ;w; - 💙 Maney

Finished sketch for Rarden~ this one got away from me but I had a lot a lot of fun haha

Quick Commission opportunity; Will be doing stream sketches in 90 minutes while woozy. Experimental, and will likely be exploring some of the messy energetic gesture stuff I used to do a few years ago. 80 USD, +20 bucks for sufficiently lewd. 1 character or 2 less detailed characters. Message @maneframe with the following info for my ease of reference: - Include: "Password: bananadicks" - Ideas you might like to see - Refs images All entries auto cancel in 12 hours. Expect to have art just dropped into your lap. Attendance not mandatory. <3 hope to see y'all there!

detail work~

Finished character design for Spiney~

Scry~ spoilered for blood and violence Trying to loosen up with my painting work keep an eye out in the future~ I plan to take a break from larger painted commissions in a couple months and will have a lot more sketches open in the near future

If you'd like to help me with transition+laser costs, maintaining my vehicle, food, rent, and generally having no self control, please consider dropping me some funds~ Taxes are hitting me a bit harder this year than expected — I chose a bad time to get that work laptop xP https://ko-fi.com/maneframe https://www.patreon.com/ManeframeArt https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/maneframe Thanks yall~ lots of fun plans this year and I hope you stick around and enjoy n—n

Colored a sketch I did a while back for sirhcx of Monica with his Genevieve ❤️ Okapis are the best