Mane's Creative Ventures 🦄

unposted personal WIP's that probably won't get finished x3

Hey all, I've been avoiding asking for help because I wanna prove my self reliance, but unfortunately I'm in a rough spot. I don't want to divulge too many details publicly. I've been in a mental health crisis for a couple months that's has made working regularly extremely difficult. Im hoping Im on the tail end of the worst of this and I'm getting specialized help, but in the meantime I've been unable to afford payments on rent, health insurance, car insurance, and registration renewal. My roommates have been feeding me on their good graces, and my credit card debt accumulated in the past year and a half is starting to crush me. I'm not having luck digging myself out of the hole on my own and it's compounding a bit :c I have frequent panics/flashbacks and episodes of lost time or unawareness of what I'm supposed to be doing that seem out of my control, foggy memory. I'm getting worried that I'm incapable of fending for myself meaningfully or paying back any help I receive, or even holding a normal job anymore either till we get me back on my feet. a lot of the symptoms I've been experiencing for years have worsened and new ones have cropped up If you have any way of helping, I would be immensely grateful, I'm trying my best and I know I'll scrape my way out eventually one way or another. 💙 Maney Patreon.com/ManeframeArt Ko-fi.com/maneframe Paypal.me/maneframe Cashapp: $Maneframe Gpay: maneframe.art@gmail.com

Opening one or two slots now with the same rules listed in the form from last time. If you'd like to refresh an entry you've already put in go ahead and ping @maneframe

SKETCH COMMISSION QUICKSLOTS OPENING https://forms.gle/X9RjDKb6D8cqfgQg7 guys I've been in really bad shape. I don't even know how to begin to describe it. I know it gets better and I'm seeking specialized therapeutic help 💙 in the meantime I'm down to 3 bucks and need to get myself on my feet for a bit. These small stream-sketch batches really motivate me to get moving. I'll be starting up stream in an hour and trying to crunch through these. I'm so grateful to anyone who picks up a slot. https://picarto.tv/Maneframe stream will be here

Colored Flay's sketch 💙

More Kinrii Stickers~ starting to get a process down here

For Fuzimir and Fyredrake~ I enjoyed getting to work on some more surreal/emotional/symbolic pieces

I'll draw names here in 50 minutes. If you wanted to get an entry in now is the time~

Money very low and so I'm opening some sketches to pad my account <3 they're priced higher than usual but you skip a long waiting list if your idea is chosen. One hand pick one raffle, additional info and submissions only through this form: https://forms.gle/XFr8k7a4574U1paPA Message @maneframe or comment here if have questions

Money very low and so I'm opening some sketches to pad my account <3 they're priced higher than usual but you skip a long waiting list if your idea is chosen. One hand pick one raffle, additional info and submissions only through this form: https://forms.gle/XFr8k7a4574U1paPA

bittersweet feelings in reflection of who Monica has been to me as a character. She started as a metaphor for my struggles with mental health. Going on adventures through a nightmarish realm, a grand journey with parallels to my own struggles. Romanticizing it in a way that felt more digestible and exciting than feeling depressed and broken and alone. She became my muse, this okapi that I drew incessantly. I have literally hundreds of sketches of her from over the years, many closed away in books in the bottom of my closet with old journals I'm still afraid to go back and read. I drew from her story so infrequently that to anyone else she's become sort of eye candy depicted in nondescript figure studies and pretty faces. I never considered her a sona, but even when I made her back in 2014 I was relating strongly to who she is. It still bothers me how little I draw from any of the stories in my head, or any real story at all. much of my work feels a bit flat to me for this reason. I've spent so long shying away from expressing myself and my ideas I hardly even dream of them anymore. Some hesitations that block me from it I've been realizing lately that a lot of monica has bled out into mane's new doe design, both conceptually and visually. Accepting these parts of my muse as parts of myself and who I want to be, it's almost strange seeing her reflected in myself. Personal growth that felt out of reach before my transition has rapidly and deeply affected areas of my person I never expected. I think the similarities are physically striking, but in the background we're both overcoming things in our own ways. Mine's not as flashy, an adventure forged with journals and tears instead of monsters and spears. I was listening to a song that reminded me all the pain and dullness in my life thus far doesn't have to keep me from my new life. I hold on too tightly to the past-- it's okay for me to start dreaming again and live my golden years. My trauma doesn't have to be my entire personality. Lately I've been struggling to actually believe deep down that I'm worth it, that feeling keeps me held down through so many layers of avoidance and ptsd symptoms and dissociation that it can be hard for me to process it in any emotionally meaningful way. I make journals several times a year on the state of my mental health, and I always include some part about how I think I'm finally almost free of the depression and will be able to make my artwork unbounded. Truth is, it's not a border I will cross and suddenly never struggle again. I'll probably spend a number of years more always slipping back into being unreliable, anguished, dysfunctional, ashamed. unable to work or self care consistently and feeling like I have no good excuse, that I shouldn't be given as many chances and as much love as I am. ❤️ I'm just being sappy, but I love this fandom, I love my friends, and I love what this life is becoming. I love my new Maney, and while it's a bit bittersweet to seen Monica and horse Mane outgrown as random muses, perhaps it will give me the space I need to tell my stories, and show who Monica really is to me and has been this whole time; more than just a pretty face

Larger res: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52928058/

Finished sticker batch for Kinrii~ Trying something new with the finish. I love how it looks, but unfortunately it would cost $85 usd per sticker for me to stay on target. I'll be exploring ways to get them done quicker than that, but I always struggle with this, the extra precision a sticker requires with nice edges throws me off

The design has been used for a second set of v-moda shields and I think they came out really sick <3 same commissioner

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Quickcomms from today's batch ❤️ Thanks to all that entered

thanks all~ I need to get a less chaotic way of organizing these set up x3 hehe. I took some notes. thank you for the interest~ I took 3 and ill post them up when the last one is done.