Hostage

I don’t always know how to properly show my feelings. sometimes I can miss someone and still pretend like I don’t care. I can want attention, but never ask for it directly. I can worry a lot about something small, replay it in my head for hours, and then say, [yeah, everything’s fine] I guess from the outside I sometimes seem cold, but in reality, I just don’t know how to be vulnerable around people who truly matter to me.