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What if I never figure it out

i understand but you ARE loveable for sure and if it's really hurting you leading people on you should simply tell them about your situation if someone actually loves you they'd understand and wait for you rather than giving up on you, you deserve time to figure out how you feel

overshared, didn't I

at least others can't get bothered

that's why I think I should get online less

it's like I want a proof that I'm loveable

and I don't know if I even like them or I'm just scared they move on

and sometimes I give them hope and sometimes I disappoint them

there are people that want to have a relationship with me

https://t.me/anythingurnot/21459 in what way

I disappoint people around me bc of it

I really love when people notice things about me thank you

well that's your defense against being hurt baby I'm ngl I've been in ur channel for a while and i remember that you were hurt so you're trying to 'protect' yourself with this

sometimes I want to be alone and sometimes I miss what I had and sometimes I want something new but I'm scared of all of it

yeah

...

https://t.me/anythingurnot/21451 are you scared of it?

And I'm scared all the fucking time

and that ends to "Idk whether I want to love or not"

I wanna be loved but not hurt I wanna love but not to hurt