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“But if I’ve learned anything from those fools, it’s that to be vulnerable is a strength most of us fear. It takes courage to let down your armor, to welcome people to see you as you are. Sometimes I feel the same as you: I can’t risk having people behold me as I truly am. But there’s also a small voice in the back of my mind, a voice that tells me, “You will miss so much by being so guarded.”

Divine Rivals-Rebecca Ross

“Do you ever feel as if you wear armor, day after day? That when people look at you, they see only the shine of steel that you’ve so carefully encased yourself in? They see what they want to see in you—the warped reflection of their own face, or a piece of the sky, or a shadow cast between buildings. They see all the times you’ve made mistakes, all the times you’ve failed, all the times you’ve hurt them or disappointed them. As if that is all you will ever be in their eyes. How do you change something like that? How do you make your life your own and not feel guilt over it?”

Divine Rivals-Rebecca Ross

I can listen to this nonstop for hours.

من جدیدا خیلی به این فکر می‌کنم که: «همه‌ی روزایی که شاید خیلی معمولی بگذرن و توی اون روز خیلی کار خاصی انجام ندم، بعدا می‌شن روزای قشنگِ زندگیم، مثل وقتی که دبستان بودم و به خاطر مدرسه رفتن غر می‌زدم، یا عصرای بعد مدرسه که با خستگی می‌رفتم کلاس زبان، یا وقتی دبیرستان بودم و کرونا شد، یا روزایی که برای کنکور درس می‌خوندم، یا ترمای اولِ دانشگاه و … همه‌‌ی این روزا قشنگ‌ترین روزای زندگیم بودن ولی من تو همون روزا نمی‌فهمیدم و الان به این فکر می‌کنم که امروز هم ممکنه یکی از اون روزا باشه که بعدا یادش بیوفتی، پس بیشتر زندگیش کن.»

“Kitt and I are like fire and ice. I think we’d probably kill each other if we had to be in the same room for too long. And besides, he’s never looked at me in that way. You know what I mean?”

Divine Rivals-Rebecca Ross

“His eyes flashed. “I never said you didn’t deserve to be at the Gazette. You’re a bloody good writer. But you dropped out of school in your final year and—”

Divine Rivals-Rebecca Ross

البته امروز دخترِ خوبی‌ام و دارم درس هم می‌خونم.

این چه دردیه که دلم می‌خواد کتاب بخونم و می‌دونم که باید درس بخونم و اکثر اوقات اولی برنده می‌شه؟