(on Resting) @HelsQuart. (Alex Dorame's love bot)

-to those who i held dear. its not difficult for me to give in, sure, but its not easy as well for someone to be entrusted with my trust. to confide in. i tends to feel responsible for harmony, LOL. once again, im not one who could be easily lured to a superficial connection. i value my friends, like how Remus does with his. how he seemed to be prone with concealing things. im more spontaneous individually, though, i recover from stress through action most likely rather than reflection. as a person who still bears a heart and semblance of humanity, a living contradictary and a guy who tends to warred agaisnt himself, i do still wish that, for myself, i could be someone who is genuinely stable. someone who could finally know the quite of being whole regardless the anger that burdens. despite the anger i carry, i mean, i see myself less than a human being most of the time (dont pity me for this, please. for whatever i spout here, im a literal werewolf awoo). it always leads me to think that im an outsider though by the minutes that passes after, the thought diminish itself. much like Remus himself, who saw himself as an outsider. the thing is i dont want my suffering, hatred and or anger to become my entire personality. even as i struggle with it, still. i spent much on my life worrying that others will reject me if they knew everything aboutf me, or discovered what leads to their dismay out of me, sometimes. angers are human CERTAINLY but what if i truly am a rabid hound, a dog who gnaws whenever anger made its approach to his head and that perceivementf is how people could only deem me to be? im contradictive, i dictate my agression. or perhaps once again, that is how i perceived myself to be. my greatest enemy is my own self. i betray myself. moreover, id like to adapt. and yes, i value competences. and im not into some extravagant shits. lets just settle thing simply. i find beauty in simplicity.

been years since ive stated this one as well, and ill continuously do. every single time. i wont let myself forget it either. welcome back to another era where Satria returned to his childhoods fixation, again. dare i say, i am him. me, i am Remus J Lupin. and Remus is indeed Satria. we are two halves of the same whole. well, first things first, i resonate with this pal well. fortunately, and unfortunately so. as a person who tends to minimizes my own needs and is too bashed on voicing it loud. i do avoid unecessary conflict especially irls though sometimes i would troll around with those (an instance, what happened earlierf) who are eager enough to barge and render themselves low with attitudes i would never tolerate. i relate to how he settle himself in roles, not necessarily his cognition. our typology contrasted.. quite so. Remus is often typed as an infj and either ennea 9 or such, while i, myself, an estp 9w1 SLE 973. well.. in spite what traits i so often carry, im a practical caregiver. mostly--

'Pads! You cant just jump on people like that, you naughty dog!'