اگزیستانسیال

2:50 isn't it strange watching people try and outrun rain?

سعی کن امروز یه آتیش روشن کنی و خودت رو پرت کنی توش اینطوری یکی از اصلی ترین نحسی‌های زندگیت رو به‌در میکنی.

۱۳ به‌در میری بیرون که نحسی‌ها رو از خودت دور کنی؟ اگر اینطوریه که باید تمام ۳۶۵ روز سال و ۲۴ ساعتِ ۷ شبانه روز تو طبیعت کمپ بزنی از بس زندگیت نحسه.

my whole existence is an april fool.

april fools is canceled this year cuz there's no bigger joke than my life.

with my endless illness, walking into blackness.

idiot's blood drops like a dagger, pink tears flow. as I sink into the after, leaving the day to close.

حرف زدن درموردش چیزی رو درست نمیکنه. باید لال شی. انقدر به کسی راجبش چیزی نگی تا یک روز از بوی تعفن جسدت از توی اتاق متوجه‌اش بشن.

I wish I could leave everything behind and never come back again, especially myself.

getting worst is also a way of healing in the opposite way since no one can say a shit about you, cuz you're already fucked up.

yes babe i do not have a life to be important for me so instead of paying attention to it, I'd fuck it up until there's nothing I can do about it.

kinda need to go back to when sleeping was a punishment, and staying awake was the most illegal thing I had done in my life.