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[06/10/2026] … Let’s Celebrate Another 6th : 𑌹

If someone had told me that the pretty girl I met through my friends would eventually become someone I would fight this hard to keep, Man, I probably would not have believed them. Kita pernah hampir kehilangan satu sama lain, dan aku ingat just how many times i came back only to be met with uncertainty. You had every reason to hesitate. And honestly, I understood why you did. So when you finally said “yes” on our first 6th, it never felt like simply getting my girlfriend back. It felt like being handed something fragile that I had to learn how to hold properly this time. I admit for some bad things that exist among me, but somehow my heart desire you so much that you made all of those old habits feel impossible to carry. Kamu ga pernah minta aku buat jadi orang lain. I just slowly became someone I could be proud of when I was beside you. Ada masanya ketika buat aku, ngucapin “putus” mungkin bisa jadi jalan keluar untuk semua masalah. But with you, even in the middle of our biggest fights, I found myself wanting to understand you more than I wanted to escape from the problem. And perhaps that is the biggest difference between who I was and who I am becoming now. Sebenarnya bukan karena hubungan kita santai aja, but because you are worth the effort that comes after the difficult parts.  ཆིཆྀ ───────────── I love the way you exist in my everyday life now, baby. The fact that you are here with me, selalu nungguin aku. A message, a silly thought, a tiny story, a random thing you want to tell me. Kamu naturally became someone I want to share things with, even the most insignificant ones. Somehow, everything becomes more fun when I know I get to tell you about it. You make being in love feel so wonderfully ordinary and extraordinary at the same time. Kita berdua udah lewati banyak buruknya. There were doubts, misunderstandings, old wounds, things that could have easily made us turn our backs on each other. Yet somehow, after every storm, I kept finding the same answer: I still want you. I still choose you. I still want us. And when we reach another little milestone together, aku mulai mikirin lagi seberapa abstrak cerita kita berdua. We were not perfect from the beginning. We were not even certain that we would make it this far. Tapi sekarang liat deh, its already four months after that little date that changed everything, kita masih belajar untuk kenal satu sama lain, masih saling mengerti, still finding reasons to stay. If loving you has changed me, then I hope I never stop changing for the better. Karena aku gamau jadi orang yang kamu pernah kenal doang. Aku mau jadi orang yang bikin kamu nyaman, bikin kamu mau untuk pilih aku lagi, lagi dan lagi. The man who proves through his actions that your second chance was never wasted. ⚹ … so, Staccie. Thank you for giving me another beginning when you could have closed the door completely. Thank you for seeing something worth loving in me even when I was still learning how to become better. And thank you for letting me discover that love is not merely about finding someone you adore. Sometimes, love is also the quiet decision to become a better man because there is someone beside me who deserves nothing less. “I love you, Baby. Now and then” ⠀

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[06/10/2026] … Let’s Celebrate Another 6th : 𑌹

If someone had told me that the pretty girl I met through my friends would eventually become someone I would fight this hard to keep, Man, I probably would not have believed them. Kita pernah hampir kehilangan satu sama lain, dan aku ingat just how many times i came back only to be met with uncertainty. You had every reason to hesitate. And honestly, I understood why you did. So when you finally said “yes” on our first 6th, it never felt like simply getting my girlfriend back. It felt like being handed something fragile that I had to learn how to hold properly this time. I admit for some bad things that exist among me, but somehow my heart desire you so much that you made all of those old habits feel impossible to carry. Kamu ga pernah minta aku buat jadi orang lain. I just slowly became someone I could be proud of when I was beside you. Ada masanya ketika buat aku, ngucapin “putus” mungkin bisa jadi jalan keluar untuk semua masalah. But with you, even in the middle of our biggest fights, I found myself wanting to understand you more than I wanted to escape from the problem. And perhaps that is the biggest difference between who I was and who I am becoming now. Sebenarnya bukan karena hubungan kita santai aja, but because you are worth the effort that comes after the difficult parts.  ཆིཆྀ ───────────── I love the way you exist in my everyday life now, baby. The fact that you are here with me, selalu nungguin aku. A message, a silly thought, a tiny story, a random thing you want to tell me. Kamu naturally became someone I want to share things with, even the most insignificant ones. Somehow, everything becomes more fun when I know I get to tell you about it. You make being in love feel so wonderfully ordinary and extraordinary at the same time. Kita berdua udah lewati banyak buruknya. There were doubts, misunderstandings, old wounds, things that could have easily made us turn our backs on each other. Yet somehow, after every storm, I kept finding the same answer: I still want you. I still choose you. I still want us. And when we reach another little milestone together, aku mulai mikirin lagi seberapa abstrak cerita kita berdua. We were not perfect from the beginning. We were not even certain that we would make it this far. Tapi sekarang liat deh, its already four months after that little date that changed everything, kita masih belajar untuk kenal satu sama lain, masih saling mengerti, still finding reasons to stay. If loving you has changed me, then I hope I never stop changing for the better. Karena aku gamau jadi orang yang kamu pernah kenal doang. Aku mau jadi orang yang bikin kamu nyaman, bikin kamu mau untuk pilih aku lagi, lagi dan lagi. The man who proves through his actions that your second chance was never wasted. ⚹ … so, Staccie. Thank you for giving me another beginning when you could have closed the door completely. Thank you for seeing something worth loving in me even when I was still learning how to become better. And thank you for letting me discover that love is not merely about finding someone you adore. Sometimes, love is also the quiet decision to become a better man because there is someone beside me who deserves nothing less. “I love you, Baby. Now and then” ⠀

⠀ I said before, I’ve got so many reason why I love you. But if someone asked me again what my favorite part of loving you was, aku bakal kesusahan banget jawabnya.

Probably it’s the way every date with you somehow turns into its own little adventure.

One day, we’re running around Duran like two kids with absolutely no sense of dignity, screaming on rides, arguing over which game we should try next, dan akhirnya cuma ketawa ketawa karena takut di tegur security nya. I’d tease you whenever you got nervous, you’d pretend to be annoyed at me, and somehow five minutes later kamu masih enhancing tangan aku aja “Don’t laugh at me!.” With this face you probably pulled out: ૮₍⇀‸↼‶₎ა “I’m not, sayang.” “You literally are.” “Okay, dikit aja gapapa ya?” And that’s us, I suppose. A little ridiculous, a little chaotic, but always finding our way back to each other. We trade the noise of the amusement park for somewhere quieter, somewhere elegant, where the lights are softer and everything feels almost like it belongs to another era. Mungkin itu musik retro yang diputar di background, maybe it’s the way you look under warm lights, or maybe I’ve simply never gotten used to how beautiful you are when I get to see you like this. I feel like at the end of every date, no matter where we go, it has always been you that I’m happiest to come home with. And I love that we can be both. We can be the couple who spends an afternoon screaming on roller coasters and making stupid jokes, then dress up and sit somewhere beautiful as if we’ve stepped into a little 60s romance of our own. I can spend the day annoying you on purpose and spend the evening quietly admiring you when you’re not looking.

You’re my favorite person to be with, but you’re also

the person I want beside me when everything becomes still.

I find myself thinking about how far we’ve come. About every little date, every random conversation, every silly argument that ended with us laughing again, every moment where I got to learn another piece of you. I look at you and smile. “You know what?” “Apa?” “I’ve bought tiket Disney lagi buat besok.” “What? Kita literally baru kemaren ke Disney?” “Hahaha. Well, I thought that’s your favorite?” Dan pada akhirnya kita cuma bisa ketawa, with our hands intertwined. Because we don’t need every date to be extravagant. I just need you there, even if we are gonna end up in Disney again for the 100th time. Karena lagi lagi, kamu bikin setiap tempat rasanya nyaman. And if loving you means getting to experience all these versions of us, then I want all of them. The childish ones. The romantic ones. The chaotic ones. The quiet ones. The ordinary days and the dressed-up nights. I want the silly little moments that nobody else would understand, and the beautiful ones that feel almost too perfect to be real. So here I am, still by your side. Still taking you out on dates. Still teasing you just to see you smile. Still looking at you like it’s the first time. Still falling for you in every little version of us. And if this really is our own little old-fashioned love story, then I hope it never ends with the music. I will pray for more nights like this, more places to discover, more laughter waiting for us, and more moments where I get to look at you and quietly think: My love, Staccie. My beautiful girl, I’d end up with you all over again. ⠀

⠀ ✠ ——— ✠ ——— ✠ ——— ✠ “7 Reasons Why I Love You.” Although honestly, I don't think seven reasons could ever be enough to explain why I keep choosing you every day. ⚿ … Maybe I could start with the simplest one: you feel like home. The kind that makes me feel like I can finally put everything down and just be myself. Ada rasa tenang yang susah buat dijelasin setiap kali kita bareng, seolah-olah somehow everything feels a little less heavy just because you're there. ⚿ … I love the way you understand me, even in the moments when I don't really know how to explain what's going on inside my head. Sometimes I don't need to say much, and somehow you still get it. And maybe that's one of the reasons I feel so lucky to have you—because with you, I never feel like I have to be someone else just to be loved. ⚿ … I love you because you stay. Because in a world where people can easily come and go, having someone who makes me feel that staying is a choice worth making means more than I can put into words. Aku suka bagaimana kehadiranmu perlahan jadi sesuatu yang selalu aku cari tanpa sadar. You're in my little routines, in the random things I want to tell someone, in the places I want to go, in the plans I haven't even made yet. ⚿ … You make me feel choosen, valued, and respected. Kamu bikin aku simply ngerasa bahwa being with me is a choice you genuinely want to make, bukan sesuatu yang sekadar kamu jalani. There’s something so comforting about knowing that my presence matters to you, my opinions are heard, and my boundaries are respected. ⚿ … And yes, I love you because you're pretty. Very, very pretty, actually. Sometimes annoyingly pretty because I still catch myself staring at you when I probably shouldn't. But it's not only the way you look. I love your funny little ways too, even the ones that make me shake my head and think, "how am I supposed to be annoyed at this girl when she's this cute?" ⚿ … Also even when life felt tiring, i always feel like coming back to you. Because you felt like home. Di antara semua hal yang kadang terasa chaotic dan uncertain, you’re the person who gives me that quiet sense of comfort, the feeling that I don’t have to pretend to be anyone else. With you, I can simply exist, be soft, be silly, be vulnerable, and still feel completely loved. You make me feel like I belong somewhere, like no matter how far the world takes me, there will always be a part of me that knows where home is. And somehow, home has always felt a little bit like you. ⚿ … I love you because you’re funny and cute in a way that makes even the most ordinary moments feel special. Kamu punya cara sendiri buat bikin aku ketawa, sometimes without even trying, and somehow your little jokes, silly expressions, and random antics never fail to make me adore you a little more. I love how you can turn a boring day into something worth remembering, just by being your goofy self. You make me laugh, you make me smile, and honestly, I love having someone whose presence alone can make my day feel lighter. ⠀

⠀ At this point, I don’t even need an excuse to come over anymore. I can literally wake up, look at my phone, and think, “Hmm, belum ketemu si ntik nih hari ini. Guess I’ll go get her.” So here I am, already at your place, waiting for you to finish showering and getting ready for our daily date yang PENTING banget tuh. Yes, daily. No, I don’t care if yesterday we already went out. And the day before that. And the day before that again. I like seeing you, baby. That’s literally the whole reason. I don’t get bored of seeing your face, listening to your stories, annoying you, or simply existing in the same room as you. Somehow, even the most ordinary moments become something I want to keep. Even though when, you take approximately one century to get ready (an avarage time for an angel that you are.) yang bikin aku harus cari cara untuk menghilangkan gabut. I’ll knock on the bathroom door just to ask, “Sayang, aman?” I’ll text you from the next room even though I could just yell your name. Aku mungkin bakal komplain kalo kamu lama banget, then immediately tell you to take your time because I actually don’t mind waiting.

Maybe I’ll steal something from your room. Maybe I’ll lie down on your bed yang kalo kata kamu anggep rumah sendiri aja. Maybe I’ll annoy you until you come out just so I can say, “Finally.”

And somewhere between all the teasing and all these little dates, aku harap kamu tau kalo aku dateng ke kamu dan nemuin kamu bukan cuma karena I have nothing better to do. But more because bareng kamu rasanya lebih baik dari apapun. I love you in a way that makes ordinary time feel precious, in a way that makes me want to know every little version of your day, in a way yang bahkan ngeliat kamu aja rasanya ga cukup. You’re someone I don’t just want for the exciting moments; I want you in the mundane ones too. I want the silly afternoons, the spontaneous plans, the quiet rides home, the days when we’re doing absolutely nothing. I love you, and somehow, my favorite place keeps becoming wherever you are. And then I’ll probably stare at you for a second too long anyway. Because no matter how many times I see you, aku rasanya jadi gatau mau ngomong apa. When that beauty hits me like a rock, the only thing I knew to say was: “You look pretty, babe.” Even when you’re still fixing your hair. Even when you’re deciding what to wear. Even when you’re annoyed because I’m being a menace while you’re getting ready. Especially then, actually. I think I just like being close to you. Kalo bisa nempel kaya perangko sekalian. And i want to he close enough that another completely ordinary day somehow turns into another date with my favorite person. So yes, I’ll keep coming over. I’ll keep asking you out even when we’ve already gone everywhere. I’ll keep waiting while you get ready, keep stealing your attention, keep making you roll your eyes at me, and keep finding ridiculous reasons to stay a little longer. So hurry up, baby. I’m waiting. We have absolutely nowhere important to be.

I just want to spend another day with you.

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⠀ Hari ini mungkin kita rayakan cuma picnic sederhana, a little cake between us, some flowers in your hands, and the two of us spending another ordinary day together. But to me, it means so much more than that. Because every little moment we’ve collected along the way has slowly become something I wouldn’t trade for anything. I picked these flowers for you with a little wish attached to each one. May every flower represent a reason for you to smile, a dream you’re still waiting to see come true, and a beautiful memory we haven’t made yet. Aku mau tahun-tahun ke depan bisa bawa kamu to places that make you happy, opportunities that inspire you to grow, and moments that make your heart feel completely full. I hope I can help you keep discovering new sides of yourself, keep becoming the person you want to be, and never lose that little spark that makes you, you.

Cantikku, no matter where life takes you, I hope you walk into every new chapter with confidence.

Akan selalu ada hal-hal yang mungkin terasa uncertain, days that don’t go according to plan, and moments when you might question yourself. But I want you to remember that you’ve already come so far. You deserve kindness when life gets difficult, love when you need somewhere to rest, and every beautiful thing that comes your way. ✸ And thank you for being such a lovely person to love. Thank you for every laugh, every conversation, every little habit I’ve grown fond of, and every memory we’ve made in these four months. I’m grateful that I get to know you this closely, to watch you grow, and to celebrate even the smallest pieces of your happiness with you. Today, let me celebrate you a little extra, babe. Let this bouquet be a small reminder that you are cherished, appreciated, and worth celebrating, not only today, but on every ordinary day that follows. Four months down, and I still want to keep making memories with you. More picnics, more little celebrations, more flowers, more laughter, and more days where I get to look across the blanket and think, “yeah, I’m really lucky that I get to call this person mine.”

Happy fourth monthversary, Sayang.

Here’s to us, and to every beautiful chapter we haven’t written yet. Now come on, before the cake melts. I brought it for you, but I’m definitely stealing a bite. ;) ⠀

⠀ I brought flowers for you because I wanted to give you something that could speak for me, especially for all the little things I sometimes struggle to say out loud … ✲ Sayang, aku mau kamu tau kalau aku ngeliat semua usaha kamu, semua hal yang udah kamu lewati, bahkan hal-hal kecil yang mungkin menurutmu ga berarti apa-apa. I’m proud of you for making it this far, I truly am. And I hope you never forget how much you deserve to be appreciated. Sometimes, flowers say the things that words struggle to express. So I hope every bloom in this little bouquet can carry a piece of what I feel for you. One for every time you’ve made my days brighter, one for every moment you’ve made me feel lucky to have you, and one for all the beautiful memories I still want to make with you. Kamu mungkin ga selalu sadar seberapa meaningful kamu untuk aku, but I hope that I can keep finding little ways to remind you that fact. I know life can get busy and overwhelming. There will be days when everything feels too much, ketika kamu merasa lelah, kehilangan arah, atau mulai questioning yourself. On those days, I hope you remember to be gentle with yourself, sayang. Just how much I try my best to you. You have grown up so far, udah melewati begitu banyak hal, and you should be proud of the person you’ve become. Because I do.

You don’t have to rush, you don’t have to have everything figured out, and you certainly don’t have to be perfect for me to be proud of you.

Di perayaan yang keempat ini, it’s already countless times I’ve felt grateful and proud to be your boyfriend. I hope you acknowledge that. So keep this little reminder close, okay sayang? You are appreciated more than you know, you are loved more than I can ever properly explain, and I’ll always be proud of the person you’re becoming. And as long as I get to be beside you, I’ll keep choosing to bring a little more warmth into your days, one moment at a time. For you, always. And for all the beautiful days still waiting for us. ⠀

⠀ ⛯ … More than the seven reasons I’ve already given you, aku rasa gak adil karena semua orang tau masih banyak yang belum disebutin. Well, I guess that’s why sitting here with you, on this little picnic date, feels like finding another reason all over again.

You’re sitting beside me, stealing pieces of my food while pretending you’re not, laughing at your own jokes, and somehow making this ordinary afternoon feel like something I’ll want to remember forever.

I love your silly little side, babe. the version of you that comes out when you’re completely comfortable around me. I love the way you care, often in ways so small that you probably don’t even realize I notice them. I love your comforting presence, how having you beside me can make everything feel quieter without you having to say anything. You understand me in ways I sometimes struggle to explain, and our most random conversations always become my favorite moments. From talking about absolutely nothing to laughing until we forget what we were even talking about, I love the little habits you have, the warmth you bring, and all these tiny pieces of you that slowly became familiar to me. “You know I can see you smiling, right?” I glance at you and laugh. “I’m not smiling.” “You are.” Well, okay. Maybe I am, simply karena kamu ga pernah salah. I mean, to be fair; how could I not? When I get to sit here with my favorite person, watching the afternoon pass while we make another memory together? Alasan baru kenapa aku sayang sama kamu. Not just for the big moments, but for these simple ones that somehow become precious because they’re ours. And if I had to give you the tenth reason, I wouldn’t need to think too hard. Simply because you are you. So, a tiny message for you: thank you for being my favorite person, my safest place, and my happiest part of every day. I’d choose to be with you for every picnic, in every season, every time. And honestly, knowing myself, I’d probably still find another hundred reasons after this. ⠀

⠀ I don’t always know how to put everything I feel for you into words. Kadang rasanya jauh lebih gampang cuma lihat kamu, terus dalam hati mikir, "how did I get this lucky to have you?" ✷ … Aku cinta kamu di setiap hal kecil yang bahkan tidak perlu disadari. In the way I automatically look for you whenever something makes me happy, in the way I always want to tell you every random thought that crosses my mind, sampai hal kecil yang sebenarnya ga penting-penting amat. Somehow, kalau ada kamu di dalamnya, everything just felt meaningful. You have become such a natural part of my happiness. Sampai sekarang aku nggak perlu alasan besar buat merasa senang, karena having you around already feels like enough.

And I love that being with you doesn’t always have to be extraordinary.

Knowing that my girl is here, that I can listen to her talking, teasing her, joking and playing around, until both of us finally gets tired and ended up falling asleep together. Simple things like that just suddenly become my favorite things. I adore you beyond any words, Staccie. Bukan cuma karena hal-hal indah yang kamu punya, tapi juga karena semua little things about you yang perlahan-lahan jadi familiar buatku. Kebiasaan kecilmu, ekspresimu, cara kamu bereaksi terhadap sesuatu, hal-hal yang bikin kamu excited, bahkan sisi kamu yang mungkin nggak semua orang tahu. I want to keep learning them. Aku mau terus kenal kamu, bahkan ketika nanti kita sudah jauh lebih lama bersama. I want to meet every version of you that is still waiting somewhere in the future, and I want you to meet every version of me that I’m still becoming. More date. More random plans. More jalan-jalan tanpa tujuan yang jelas. More photographs we probably won’t stop laughing about. More little celebrations for things that aren’t even supposed to be celebrated. More moments where I look at you and quietly think, yeah, this is my favorite person. And when I imagine all the beautiful things life could give us ... somehow, my favorite part is never really the place or the moment itself. It’s you being there with me. Mau sejauh apa pun kita nanti pergi, sebanyak apa pun tempat yang akan kita datangi, atau sesederhana apa pun hari yang sedang kita jalani, I think I’ll always have the same little wish; To have you beside me while it happens. Karena kalau akhirnya aku bisa menjalani semua hal itu sama kamu, I don’t think I need life to be perfect.

I just need it to keep giving me

little reasons

to love you more.

And 'About You' by The 1975 is now playing in the background feels almost too fitting. Because when it comes to my favorite things, my favorite places, my favorite memories, and all the little futures I keep imagining… So much of my favorite life has become about you. ⠀