pearlveil

i’ve been thinking bout that summer, when we had each other back when we were young and dumb and we knew everything.

living like a rockstar, trashing hotel rooms let’s get stupid tattoos cause we got nothing to lose.

co-comparison is killing me slowly. i think, i think too much bout kids who dont know me. and im so sick myself, i’d rather be, rather be. anyone anyone else. jealousy jealousy.

got a pretty face, pretty boyfriend too i wanna be you so bad and i dont even know you. all i see is what i should be, happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy.

i kinda wanna throw my phone across the room cause all i see are girls too good to be true. with paper-white teeth and perfect bodies, wish i didnt care. i know their beauty’s not my lack. but it feels like the weight is on my back, and i cant let it go.

great well i just cut my hair, what’s the absolute worst that could happen now?

You return with every new wound, and each time, you are dearer than before, and you cut deeper than before.

After you, faces passed through my life like fading shadows, each leaving faint scars meant to erase your name but they never could.

After you, the others were only small scratches, tiny marks that never reached as far as you did, never touched my heart.

I carry exquisite wounds upon my skin, but you you were the kindest of them all, the deepest, the dearest.

Let’s fall in love again and do it right this time.

if you ever leave im coming with you

🐰

It all started with a random chat and now you mean the world to me