Java on the Way

I have read hundreds of messages in my dms. That made my mood because they helped me realize that I am appreciated by people. Nearly 90% of 200+ messages was asking not to delete the channel. My final answer is "Okay." I will not be administering it for a while, though. Thanks, everyone.

I guess I changed my mind. I mean, I won't delete the channel, but it won't be active.

I wanna delete this channel. That's been an amazing journey, and I committed so much effort to get what I have now. Just one click, and the channel is gone. Leave your thoughts on the comments section below. I dunno what I am going through now. You might say that I should say thanks a billion for all the blessings that I have. Guess what? Everyday, when I wake up, one of the first things that I do is to say "Thank you, Allah, for everything." The reason why I have been feeling so pessimistic for the last month is because of my personal and private life. That's not about my family or friends. No, that's not what it is. The thing is I wish I could handle my thoughts and emotions. I am always under (peer) pressure and depression. I always think of my future. I always overthink things. My mental health doesn't seem to be stable, lately. So, I decided to take my time and work out the best for myself. I am gonna have some appointments with my Local Representative again and talk about my life and its problems. Ms. Kim is very helpful, and last time she helped me out a lot to overcome the feeling of loneliness and homesickness. I wanna go silent now. I wanna explore myself.

I am done with my social media, for real. I am tired of sharing posts about my life here in America. I just want to immerse myself to the American society and stop talking in Uzbek and Russian. Now, I am back home in Minnesota. School has already started and there are so many things that I am going to accomplish this quarter that I don't have time to spend on Telegram, Instagram or whatever. I might work on my YouTube channel in February and share my videos' links here on this channel. So, it's not gonna be dormant here. Also, I deleted the discussion group but turned on the reactions. Feel free to react to every post I might share here and follow my Instagram and YouTube. Instagram | YouTube

On Top of New York

I made it to the top.

My Country 🇺🇿 My Pride the t-shirt is from Uzbekistan, I guess.

Today is the last day of my trip in New York. How am I feeling? I feel like four days absolutely aren't enough to see each and every popular and famous place in New York. If I had a chance, I would definitely visit New York next month too because I want to get on top of the Empire State Building and take lots of photos and videos in there. So far, I paid a visit to 1. Rockefeller Center 2. Chrysler Tower 3. Trump Tower 4. World Trade Center 5. Time Square 6. One World Observatory 7. The Memorial of Twin Towers 8. Brooklyn Bridge 9. Queens 10. The New York Subway 11. Grand Central Terminal 12. Hudson Yards 13. St. Patrick's Cathedral 14. St. John's Cathedral 15. Wall Street 16. Korean Town 17. The Metropolitan Museum of Art Today, I will go to a very special place. I have been waiting for this moment for a very long time, and it feels like I am about to realize this dream. Thanks to God for everything.

Some pics that I didn't share when I was at The Met.

Some pics that I didn't share when I was at The Met.

Some pics that I didn't share when I was at The Met.

Tried Korean Food in NY. That's a lot of work, I'd say, cuz customers have to cook all the food available themselves, which requires a lot of focus.

just so you know, this video has a shitty quality cuz some people asked me to share files with a lower quality so that they don't have to spend lots of their traffic.

I am happy I finished reading George Orwell's short story of Shooting an Elephant. It was the third time I read a book from the point of the narrator. (The first and second ones were Woman Warrior and A Small Place) This book is about a police officer (or a sheriff) who kills an elephant just because he wants to prove that he is not rabbit-hearted, and show his masculinity in front of the locals. (don't wanna go in details as I definitely recommend to read this short story) This was the last assignment for my English class, from which I got an A. In the second quarter, we mainly learned about the Indigenous People of America, Colonization and discrimination against people of color, Asians and the weak. That was amazing because it helped me better understand the American history, politics and culture. I am looking forward to joining my new classes (Intro to Media Arts, Mythology, World Studies) in the Third Quarter because they are a lot of fun and more engaging!

This YouTube video is just a compilation of what I saw in the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York. There are some pretty good captures of pharaohs. Go check it out 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻 https://youtu.be/wsZmffYBMBI

I have been to so many places in New York. Oh God, thanks for everything. I am feeling so high ✨💯