It’s my birthday, today! 🥳
Normally, I don’t make a big thing about it. Who cares about turning 49?!? 😂
HOWEVER, this is the birthday I wasn’t supposed to have.
Just over 10 years ago I was diagnosed with classic polyarteritis nodosa. The Mayo Clinic gave me 7-10 years to live. I’m so thankful God equipped me with a strong defiance streak because that diagnosis and prediction lit a fire and drive in me to prove them wrong and live for my babies.
I was a single mother of 4 at that time and there was NO WAY I was leaving them.
I could write a book about my fight to live, the god complexes I had to push through, the very long list of meds I was on, and the journey to getting off of opium pain meds. I learned a lot from going hard into the pharma system and then getting out of it as fast as I could before it killed me which was a total of about 2 years.
I could write another book about my transition into holistic health care, the ups and downs of healing, and the lengths I’ve gone to in pursuit of a healthy full life.
Maybe someday I will write those books. Today I’m inspired to share the most special and intimate moment of my journey.
I was at a crossroads. Do I choose the 3 years of chemo prescribed for me by the Mayo Clinic doctors or do I go for the natural treatments recommended to me by Dr. Michael Karlfeldt. By this time I had given all of my money to pharma and chemo would have been free. I had 4 beautiful babes to feed and my business wasn’t doing well after so much time in bed, at doctors appointments, and in pain. I also knew that I would lose some of the physical support from people if I didn’t do what the prestigious Mayo Clinic recommended. My mind was a foggy mess from all of the meds and I was utterly alone in this decision.
But, my sweet Abba spoke to my ❤️ through the confusion and the drug haze. He asked me the sweetest question, “Do you believe that what you believe is really real?”
I pondered this question. If I’m just reading scripture and going to church because it feels good then it totally makes sense to do the chemo, save money, and keep support.
If I do believe that what I believe is really real then He has my finances, He has my kids, He has my healing, and He will bring the physical support I need.
When I made the decision that YES I DO believe that what I believe is really real I stepped out in faith like Indiana Jones stepped off the cliff. Like Jones, the steps rose up to meet me.
I am His and He is mine.
Not because I deserve anything. I’m not perfect and fall short every single day, much to my dismay. I hope you have God in your life because when everything hangs on life or death decisions I promise you He is the one you want to hear from.
The road hasn’t been easy but its been 💯 worth it. I would share a picture of my gorgeous and precious children because they are my reason for everything but I don’t advertise them to any creeps who may be creepin (especially tax payer funded creeps 😁). Instead, I will share my love song that I listened to on repeat while I took IV’s, detoxed from meds, and needed inspiration.
I’m full of gratitude for my journey. Facing death and holding hands with the Holy Spirit on my way back to life makes it so much easier to live without fear and deepens my appreciation for the good things in life like Love and Joy.
I hope my most precious moment inspires you for whatever it is you are going through or have gone through in this journey of life.
#LibertyForever
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