Our Side of the Story

Bring back the days where we used to be excited about Harry Potter, Diary of A Wimpy Kid and Geronimo Stilton.

Someone recommended me to read My Secret Garden by Nancy Friday. It’s basically about the fantasy (sexual) of women. See I don’t really have anything to say to the women in the book but the intention it was written with. Which is to glorify fantasies and how they could frost marriage. Lol ገና ብዙ ጉድ ስለሚጠብቀን I’m not even slightly moved by this. I didn’t even get a hundred pages in to stop reading it. It was poisoning my brain .

Since I want to talk books today, it’s been a while since I took a break from reading anything with the genre of romance. One reason was there’s this book (a few books actually) by Penelope Douglas that threw me off. It was just so shameful and disgusting. In short, it was porn but in a book. If I ever become an author, lord forbid me from becoming one who promotes incest, sexualizes women in every possible way and portrays men as nothing but sex craved animals.

Andddddddd

Not because of some poetic traumatic experiences but for the responsibility it brings. Not knowing what to do with their trust, heart and love. “You’ll learn along the way” someone said and yeah.

Few things come close to being as scary as becoming too important to someone.

I’ve missed Addis!

እንደማንኛውም ሰው ህልሞች ነበሩኝ ከህልሞቼ ሁሉ ትልቁ "ደህና" መሆን ነበር...you know waking up with a grateful heart instead of one filled with dread and hatred. Looking at myself in the mirror and smiling because I appreciate who’s staring back at me. ከሃቅ አልርቅም ካልኩ ትልቁ ህልሜ ላይ ተስፋ ቆርጬ ነበር...እውን የሚሆን መስሎም አልተሰማኝ:: Everyday felt like carrying a pile of the world’s burden and everyone living in it. The days took everything out of me, the years made me hate my existence and God. ሰው "እንዴት ነህ?" ተብሎ ሲጠየቅ "ደህና ነኝ እግዚአብሔር ይመስገን!" ሲል የእውነት እቀና ነበር:: እንደዚህ ደስታ ፊቴ ላይ እየተነበበ የምፈነጥዝበትን ቀን እያሰብኩ ጉጉት ልቤን ይሞላብኝና "ውይ ለካ ተስፋ ከቆረጥኩ ቆየሁ" ወደራሴ ይመልስኛል:: I’m not going to say a miracle happened and I was suddenly okay. No it took forever. It took so many “You got this debs, just one more breath, one more day” So many days being ruined with panic attacks and grief. Tons of “ምነው heal ባይደረግ ቢቀርስ" “To hell with growth” “I don’t want to do this anymore” But we’re here, with God, my people and me. ደህና ነኝ!

Good Day fam, Debbie’s always rooting for you🖤

I absolutely loved every bit of this!