sleepless night

i don't know but i just felt i wanna share this for a long time i was so insecure because of my eyes , i felt they weren't pretty at all or like they were so basic and i was be like "i wish i had a blue or green eyes they're much prettier" but now i ADORE my eyes i love these small details that makes them so pretty and they're one of my favorite parts of my face they're big and have a pretty dark shade of brown even though they're pretty much dark but they light so bright under the sun and they look so pure and i love how can they shine when i see my favorite people actually they shine always you'll always see the innocence in them and what makes them more special that there's شامة صغيرة in my eyelash line which is actually so beautiful i've never seen someone who has it when i noticed that i felt so happy to have such a rare feature lol so the point of saying this اكو شغلات لسنين راح تكرهونها بنفسكم بس راح يجي يوم وتكون الشغلات المفضلة عدكم وراح تحبون هالشغلة بكل تفاصيلها وتستوعبون تفاصيلها الصغيرة شكد حلوة اكيد مو بيوم وليلة فجأة تجيكم الثقة بنفسكم ، الموضوع ممكن ياخذ سنين على ما تتقبلون نفسكم فقط... but it's totally fine اخذوا وقتكم بتقبل وحب ذاتكم حتى لو اخذ منكم وقت ، ما يهم شگد هالشي ياخذ منكم وقت اهم شي النتيجة بالاخير ، اهم شي تكونون متقبلين وحابين هالشي صدگ او حابين نفسكم صدگ in general مو بس هالشغلة الي مخليتكم كلش insecure ، واتمنى بالاخير تحبونها صدگ with your whole heart مو مجرد تَقبُل او تحاولون تقنعون نفسكم او بصريح العبارة تقشمرون روحكم ، trust me انو تچذبون على نفسكم اسوء من انو تچذبون على الناس. and don't forget y'all to be proud of it , to be proud of yourself☆.

took a couple years but now i am secure i am so evolved now i ask for more , and more AND MORE , AND MORE , AND MORE

every page that i wrote you were on it

Lord, what will become of me?

i'll open up i'm thinking everything you wish i wasn't the call was tough but you're better off i'm being honest so won't you stop holding out for me when i don't want it? just brush me off cause i'm your ghost right now your house is haunted

but i can see us lost in the memory August slipped away into a moment in time cause it was never mine and i can see us twisted in bedsheets August sipped away like a bottle of wine cause you were never mine cause you were never mine NEVER MINE

lost my fight with fate a tug-of-war of leave and stay i give in , i abdicate i lay my sword down anyway