DRAMATIC.

Is it too hard to love me?

I’m not a mean person .. but i hope that all the people who hurt me will hurt the same .

When you get what you want but not what you need …

i say, "i won't love anyone anymore." that's my brain talking. if you heard my heart, you'd break and you'd think, "why does she want to be loved so badly?" if you heard my heart, you'd hear some jagged edges of my heart hurt my own self. if you heard my heart, you'd cry out loud for the pain I've buried somewhere deep within, so well hidden even I can't let it out now. if you heard my heart, you'd hear it's pleas asking strangers to hear it's silent screams. if you heard my heart, you'd know that I was lying whenever I said, "I don't need anyone. if you heard my heart, you'd know how badly I want to speak of the pain and rid myself of it but everytime I try, the words get lost somewhere and i swallow my tears. if you heard my heart, you'd know that it's just afraid to get broken again.

I fought and fought and fought for things i love till it drained all my strength.. so i’m giving up.

The desire of being loved.

Anything I ever did, I did it terribly. Whenever I loved, I loved terribly; whenever I hated, I hated terribly; whenever I got attached to someone or something, I attached terribly; whenever I decided to detach, I detached terribly; and I don't know if others are perfectly perfect at existing or if they have mastered the art of masking their hearts.

I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it, to be fed so much love I couldn't take anymore. Just once.

What if god asked the people that hurt me about me grief , tears , heartbreaks , disappointments , sleepless nights and hurting my soul so much?

Do not be ashamed of your tears. They are the evidence that you have loved deeply and lost something worth crying for.