Solitaire

أتمنى ألا تكرر نفسي الخطأ مرتين، مرة أخرى ..

" I know that for me, when I'm inside myself, when I'm in my own head, it gets… This place right here, this skull between my ears, that is a bad neighborhood, and I should not be in there alone," I can't be in there by myself. It's insane! It's crazy in here. This is a bad place for me to be by myself. And so when I'm in that, my whole life gets thrown off. If I'm in there, I don't say nice things to myself. There's another Chester in there that wants to take me down. " - Chester Bennington

"When you find human society disagreeable and feel yourself justified in flying to solitude, you can be so constituted as to be unable to bear the depression of it for any length of time, which will probably be the case if you are young. Let me advise you, then, to form the habit of taking some of your solitude with you into society, to learn to be to some extent alone even though you are in company; not to say at once what you think, and, on the other hand, not to attach too precise a meaning to what others say; rather, not to expect much of them, either morally or intellectually, and to strengthen yourself in the feeling of indifference to their opinion, which is the surest way of always practicing a praiseworthy toleration. If you do that, you will not live so much with other people, though you may appear to move amongst them: your relation to them will be of a purely objective character. This precaution will keep you from too close contact with society, and therefore secure you against being contaminated or even outraged by it. Society is in this respect like a fire — the wise man warming himself at a proper distance from it; not coming too close, like the fool, who, on getting scorched, runs away and shivers in solitude, loud in his complaint that the fire burns." Counsels and Maxims By Arthur Schopenhauer

"مثلُ حياتِنا كَمَثَلِ رحلةٍ، كُلَّما تَقَدَّمْنا فيها، تَغَيَّرَ المَشْهَدُ عَمَّا قَدَّمَهُ لَنَا في أوَّلِ الأَمْرِ، وَكُلَّما اقْتَرَبْنا يَتَغَيَّرُ مَرَّةً أُخْرَى. هذا بالضَّبْطِ ما يَحْدُثُ؛ خاصَّةً مَعَ رَغْباتِنا. مِرارًا نَجِدُ شَيْئًا آخَرَ، نَجِدُ شَيْئًا أَفْضَلَ مِمَّا نَفْتَشُ عَنْهُ وَنَتَطَلَّعُ إِلَيْهِ، وَغَالِبًا مَا نَجِدهُ فِي طَرِيقٍ مُخْتَلِفٍ تَمَامًا عَنْ ذَلِكَ الَّذِي بَدَأْنَا فِيهِ بَحَثنَا العَقِيمِ. فَبَدَلًا مِنْ أَنْ نَجِدَ، كَمَا تَوَقَّعْنَا، المَتَعَةَ وَالسَّعَادَةَ وَالبَهْجَةَ، نَلْقَى الخِبْرَةَ وَالبَصِيرَةَ وَالمَعْرِفَةَ: المِنْحَةَ الحَقِيقِيَّةَ وَالدَّائِمَةَ، بَدَلًا مِنْ الأُخْرَى العَابِرَةِ وَالوَهْمِيَّةِ." – آرثر شُبِنْهَوَر

‏"الفلسفة الرواقية.. والتصالح مع الحياة" -هل أنت خائف من الأقدار التي يخبئها لك الغد؟ يقلق الإنسان من أمور لم تأتِ، ومشكلات لم تحدث وأقدار لم تجيء، ويصاب بالكثير من الضغوطات النفسية من جراء هذا الخوف لغدٍ لا يملكه وأقدار لا يستطيع السيطرة عليها. يقول رائد الفلسفة الرواقية "أبكتيتوس" "لا يهتم الإنسان بالمشاكل الحقيقية، بقدر ما يهتم بقلقه المتخَيّل من تلك المشاكل".."ما أنصحك به هو ألا تكون تعيسا قبل حلول الأزمة؛ فهي بالتأكيد لم تأتي بعد!". وتمثلت الدعوة الأبرز للرواقية في عدم القلق أو الحزن على ما هو خارج عن إرادتنا وسيطرتنا، ومحاولة العيش في وفاق مع الأقدار. وتنصح التعاليم الرواقية أيضا أن يكون للإنسان القدرة على التمييز بين ما يمكن للفرد تغييره وما لا يستطيع تغييره.. فلو تمكن كل منا من استيعاب حدود قدراته؛ لما حزنّا على سفاسف الأمور، ولا أضعنا الكثير من الوقت بمعارك لا يمكننا الفوز بها من الأساس!!.

I pray every night to God, the Creator of the soul, not to put me in a place where my green soul burns

" I've decided to free myself from this life. How come? It wouldn't help you to know... And I can't talk about it. And you wouldn't understand. It's not because you don't understand but because you can't feel what I feel. You can sympathize, understand, show compassion. But feel my pain? No." - Taste of cherry (1997)