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U can only really accumulate true coolness in the quiet whispers of boredom and normality. that is ofc if u are wired correctly. if not u will just stay a normie. which is probably even much much much much cooler

I dreamt today of what it means to be free and what it means to be a slave. didn’t understand much. made me cry

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In the same way you can’t apparently travel to the past even if it was possible to manipulate the matter in a way that allows future travel - you can’t make yourself forget something in the same way you can make yourself memorize something. and that’s ruining my life yalllllll #no #ars #oblivionalis #:(

what did i learn who did i help

Xx.08.23. life feels sad and lonely and sharp today. gray, turbulent. as if there’s nowhere to hide, never a safe space; naked and barren loneliness. the harshness of feeling unloved and wrong and awkward when nothing seems to help and the foundations shake and the snarky future is about to welcome me in its cold indifferent arms. but i still love knowing that i can always come home and have a good cry and brew some herbal tea and eat a nice meal and shower and tell myself that it’s okay and i’m safe and loved (no matter how hard it seems to believe so) and just try again the next day. and then again. and then some more thousand times until the sun shines again and the world is warm and transparent and i can’t even hold all the love for life inside my trembling little heart so it spills over on everyone i know and makes them shine and smile.