Sage (t1/2)

When the other person is slightly evil

this too

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So true

I can only remotely feel like a person through the music i listen to and share After spending so much time having my feelings blunted by meds i forgot what its like to feel things I can only convey my feelings through music Its corny as fuck but its the truth, hard to explain, harder to understand

I already feel like i said too much and its my own damn channel I have been relying on 3 medications just to barely get up and go to work and maybe if im lucky i have the energy to do something else like cleaning my room or eating

Im just so knee deep in my own cesspool of a mind i can’t stand the thought of going through anything remotely emotionally painful

I do think a lot of the channel owners here are cool Such as https://t.me/nooneknowwhoiam https://t.me/tomatopapper https://t.me/luaics https://t.me/lostintranslation20 https://t.me/al0la19 https://t.me/iwnaseenirv https://t.me/yapyapyapyap12 https://t.me/antl3rsqueen https://t.me/Some_Mercy

Solitude is better for me as a person with BPD, i have unintentionally hurt a lot of people either directly or indirectly I am very aware of who i am and what my behavior conveys

I hate feeling lonely but i like being alone