bullshitting to all

no amount of hate, no amount of joy, nothing can affect me in this state. i just purely live and purely exist, that's all. i become an observer who is true and without any sense of judgement. and to those can't get me. there will come a time.

people say why you get drunk, and why do you harm yourself? ah man how do i explain them? these things don't come to me like it does with others, i don't feel a sense of high, or a sense to do some implusive shit. i just feel ethreal, unbound, and free from everything after letting my brain lose control, and i don't give in my control to some non-existent thing, not even to myself. it just is free, free from my own limitations and boundaries, i think like i am supposed to, i feel like i'm supposed to. i live like i'm supposed to, holy yap my real self would never let me type all this shit out so easily. but see the beauty, it's not that i don't care. it's just i'm so free, noone can understand me.

i think you're cool, but i also think by a little margin defeat you. i accept my dumbness

когда мне нужна была рука помощи, я понял что у меня их две

oh kevin released, nvm

talking about both, joji and kevin

did he release the album yet? how long am i to wait

always choosing to be the photographer, never the one who includes himself in, then why do i feel pain when i see that later? and why does it feel good when I'm included anyways

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