bullshitting to all

the poor architect whose memory developed unforgivingly complicated by design,had no escape from his own scaffolding.he felt incapable of addressing the void so he looked for whatever was dear to him in another expanse of stone he created. He died with age and satisfied. He lived his life not his mind

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sometimes i worry, sometimes. it makes me tighten my whole body and the mental toll gets so expensive my nerves have to pay up. doctors call it involuntary motion. i can't say for exactly what things i worry about but I'm confident that one day, i won't worry anymore.

also i dont like cigarette after sex

mimi has progressed so far. mimi is far better human than he used to be. mimi should learn to respect himself, and not turn that respect into pride ans ego again

no, I'm wrong, i was wrong. im a very unrealiable narrator of my own life.

and a morning like this

to all the journal channels on telegram, including ofc BTA

i find it so strange as a controlling person, when things are not in my control and things just depend on randomness, it automatically makes thing beautiful. the moment i know my effort has been put into bringing this event, my joy leaves with it unfolding.

I'm still the old me, just with a better performing layer and better acting out abilities. it seems my whole life is an opera drama and the watchers are a mirror on the front seat and a lifeless mannequin who looks likes me

also when I'm reflecting back much clearly to my last few months now, i see how my core traits, which i thought were reductioning are actually much rigid than i thought.

this thing still isn't working, the 3 day interval spans to over a week or two weeks sometimes..