اگزیستانسیال

it's always about urges, not needs.

and the urge to jump. I have a high urge to jump in front of things. buses, cars, subways, trains and etc.

the urge to let go of everything and when I say everything, I really mean it.

1:50 I’m all over it. gasoline on everything. finished all the letters I could write in and out of sleep. burning up the interstate, how do I communicate a thing?

birds in the trees, flowers blooming everywhere. terror stalks the land in every way.

how crazy unserious abnormal sick awkward low mental stability you are. (in a flirting way)

5:05 this is my reality. the moonlight embrace my body. my story is repeated again, these voices in my mind lead me to suicide.

4:09 let me be in the longing of death. I see nothing, I just feel the fog of my anxiety. under autumn my self-destruction, my hollow dream is dying.

2:48 here only with my soul, I can't live more. hope is not real, it's just a dream. my essence awaits in the forest of eternity.

I would prefer a gunpoint instead of talking about how I feel.

I need to be obsessed over something to move the fuck on from this life or I'd be dead.

imagine hating on me and I'm just in my notes app finishing my 23475421th suicide note of this year.

I'm so hungry I could eat my parents so there would be no more parents and no more me either.