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ዛሬን በልካችን የሰፋን ይመስል ነገንም አስተካክለን እኛ እንደምናበጀው ይሆን ነገር ትንፋሽ እስኪያጥረን ራሳችንም እስኪዞር እንጨነቃለን Yesterday I told my mom how my anxiety is getting the best of me and how despite me trying my very best the constant worry about what tomorrow holds is consuming all my energy. “እግዚአብሔር ልፋትን ያያል የደከምሽበትን አያሳጣሽም...በትላንት እድሜዎችሽ የታመነ ዛሬም ነገም ያው ነው::" These words went straight to my heart and hugged it tight, my anxiety and all the tension dissipated. One other thing she said was to not make complaining a habit because I’d forget what being thankful and rejoicing taste like. Praise be to his name for his faithfulness and unconditional love. God is always with you even in the days it feels like he has completely forgotten you.

Love the well deserved sleeps Greet the sun before anyone Let the day be good to you for no reason Hug whoever spreads their arms with all your warmth *I’m so close to loving sunrises a little more than sunsets*

Love the well deserved sleeps Greet the sun before anyone Let the day be good to you for no reason Hug whoever spreads their arms with all your warmth *I’m so close to loving sunrises a little more than sunsets*

Do you have friends that are addicts? How do you feel about them? How do you approach them? Are you an addict? How do you feel about how the world refers to addicts of any sort in general? Kindly drop your answers😊 @DebbieTesfaye

I’m in my morning class, I haven’t had anything to eat and I didn’t sleep much because I was up doing assignments. But does any of this stop my mind from processing? Unfortunately no. I think about how our lives would have been better if things weren’t how they were almost everyday. Like if success and wealth came to us without any effort. If we had people at anytime and anywhere regardless of the various intolerable personalities we possess. If competition wasn’t a factor and we could just do everything in our pace and time. If death wasn’t inevitable. If life itself wasn’t inevitable. But the tiniest possibility of all these happening somehow scares me. Because we are immune to change and we do our very best to avoid it, imagine what an alteration in our whole existence would do to us?

I have always worried that I was failing God because of what I go through. "If I cannot get better for you and if I cannot heal then what am I doing for you? What good will you find in this no good of a body that can't even support itself to move like a human being?"ካልዳንኩልህ ታዲያ እንዴት ወደድኩህ?" I used to torture myself with this question. As the guilt grew the further I strayed till God made me realize it isn't in my capability or actions that made me loved. His love wasn't conditioned on the power I have.It came freely. From the beginning it was all from him and never about what I could do or did. I thought of him as if he was looking from the outside screaming " I gave you all of this why are you feeling this way? Why are you angry? Why are you not ok?" But I was wrong.All alongHe was feeling all of it with me. And then his words came to me...“ከኃጢአት በቀር በነገር ሁሉ እንደ እኛ የተፈተነ ነው እንጂ፥ በድካማችን ሊራራልን የማይችል ሊቀ ካህናት የለንም።”He has always been there.He wasn't an outside observer. He too felt what I felt. So.I sat down with myself. Closed my eyes. Started to look through his.🖤

I have always worried that I was failing God because of what I go through. "If I cannot get better for you and if I cannot heal then what am I doing for you? What good will you find in this no good of a body that can't even support itself to move like a human being?“ከኃጢአት በቀር በነገር ሁሉ እንደ እኛ የተፈተነ ነው እንጂ፥ በድካማችን ሊራራልን የማይችል ሊቀ ካህናት የለንም።” — ዕብራውያን 4፥15"ካልዳንኩልህ ታዲያ እንዴት ወደድኩህ?" I used to torture myself with this question. As the guilt grew the further I strayed till God made me realize it isn't in my capability or actions that made me loved. His love wasn't conditioned on the power I have.It came freely. From the beginning it was all from him and never about what I could do or did. I thought of him as if he was looking from the outside screaming " I gave you all of this why are you feeling this way? Why are you angry? Why are you not ok?" But I was wrong.All alongHe was feeling all of it with me. And then his words came to me...“ከኃጢአት በቀር በነገር ሁሉ እንደ እኛ የተፈተነ ነው እንጂ፥ በድካማችን ሊራራልን የማይችል ሊቀ ካህናት የለንም።”He has always been there.He wasn't an outside observer. He too felt what I felt. So.I sat down with myself. Closed my eyes. Started to look through his.🖤

I often think that, had I not met you I would be a mess, I would be an absolute mess I mean one of my most special memory about us Is the fact that I got to date you Your superpower is your ability To calm me down when I’m too far gone And your handsome I met my soulmate (you) when I was 16 years old And I have loved you every minute of every day Since you first asked me to tutor you maths I have loved you through my mental chaos I have loved you even when I hated you I didn’t fall in love with you Because I was lost or lonely or broken or needed to be fixed I didn’t fall in love with you Because I needed you to make me feel loved I fell in love with you Because the first day we went out together Everything stopped, the sounds around us were all muted And all I could hear was your voice And every time I stared into your eyes I felt home I fell in love with you Cause you loved me even when it wasn’t even on my mind You hugged me, when I needed to be held You laughed at my stupid unfunny jokes And you were always there Even when I didn’t know I needed you I fell in love with you because of the million things You didn’t know you were doing All that I ever was because of you Is all that I’ll never be again Every time you smiled at me I saw the melancholy If I had the chance to repeat I would in a heart beat Remember? When you asked me to sing for you? In case, you don’t, I do I wish you could sue me For destroying your heart I wish you hurt me more than I hurt you But I guess we’re not time travelers, are we? I had no other thought in the world But how to make you happy For the rest of your life Because you were already doing so much for me And you didn’t even know it But as time passed by You slowly started drifting away And the worst part of it was I knew I couldn’t do anything To stop it from happening And just like that you were gone But you will always have a place in my heart Whether I like it or not Because I had never felt love the way I felt it with you Even if it ended up breaking our heart I’m sorry Please forgive me… I pray that the God who reunited the Israelites to the promised land of Canaan Will someday reunite us -Bonita 🖤

I think I’ve answered enough for today, thank you for being here and for the never ending support. Have a good night🖤

Q: ስምሽ ሲፃፍ ቀላል ቢሆንም...ሲጠራ ግን እንዴት ነው? ማለት በድምፅ A: ደስ እንዳላችሁ ጥሩት😅

Q: Let me recommend you read a book called "atomic habits" if u haven't red before A: On my reading list :)

Q: emm emetfkrew saw emyafkresh kehone mndnw metadrgew A: መቀበል:: ሲፈጥረን የወደድነው ሁሉ የኛ ካልሆነ የምንላት ጉድ አለች😅 በርግጥ it’s inevitable, we can’t have a say in who our hearts choose. ተወዳጆቹም እኛን የመውደድ ግዴታ የለባቸውም...don’t make them feel guilty for it.

Q: selam lanchi Debbie.... e....what's ur purpose here in life...? do u think... A: I’m too sleep deprived to answer this.

Q: Did u have a boyfriend? A: This question is grammatically ill for me to answer :)

Q: the best and the worst thing about having a channel? A: This channel gave me an exposure to so many great minds and also helped me to develop a lot of things. At the same time, somehow along the way of trying to give it my best it becomes a burden and a responsibility which is a feeling I don’t like.