BACKWARD BEINGS

When i feel lost and lose every energy to answer any questions,when am to weak to stand up against all the lies and negative thoughts that go through my head and wonder why am still here ,i feel like am waiting for something that's never coming. hoping for something that will never happen.

There are days when i feel nothing, just something in between dead and alive, but you come back in my life and i feel my self coming back again only till the time you decide to leave again.

This is really exhausting .😩

Tired of feelin' like I'm trapped in my damn mind tired of feelin' like I'm wrapped in damn lie tired of feelin' like my life is a damn game nigger really wanna die in the night time.

I can't even remember who i used to be before i became this way.

I'm not intrigued by anything anymore ,i just don't wanna be here.

Sometimes i just zone out like I'm missing moments from my life.

It really hurts when you don't even have words to explain what your feeling so you just dissociate from yourself ...