⋆ -` ᴼᶠᶠ 𝚃𝚑𝚎𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚍𝚂𝚞𝚗'𝚜𝙲𝚊𝚅𝚎

‌ ⋆ ➤ It's not the room, not beginning Not the crowd, not winning Not the planet, not spinning Not a ruse, not heat Not the fire lapping up the creek Not food, not to eat Not what you really wanted Nor the mess in your purse Nor the bed that is haunted With a blanket of thirst It's not the hunger revealing Nor the ricochet in the cave Nor the hand that is healing Nor the nameless grave

⋆ ➤  This is my way of saying goodbye 'Cause I can't do it face to face I'm talking to you before No matter what happens now You shouldn't be afraid Because I know today has been The most perfect day I've ever seen

⋆ ➤  Christmas eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog's white teeth slice right through my fist Drive to the ER and you put me on risk Grocery store list, now you get pissed Unchecked calls and messages I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family

⋆ ➤  She told me not to step on the cracks I told her not to fuss and relax Pretty little face stopped me in my tracks But now she sleeps with one eye open But that's the price she'll pay I took a knife and cut out her eye I took it home and watched it wither and die Well, she's lucky that I didn't slip her a smile That's why she sleeps with one eye open, oh But that's the price she'll pay I said, "Hey, girl with one eye Get your filthy fingers out of my pie" I said, "Hey, girl with one eye I'll cut your little heart out 'cause you made me cry"

⋆ ➤  I walked down the mall, stand over by the wall Where I can see it all, find out who ya call Lead you to the supermarket checkouts Some specials and rat food, get lost in the crowd one way, or another

⋆ ➤  I hate you for what you did And I miss you like a little kid I faked it every time, but that's alright I can hardly feel anything, I hardly feel anything at all You gave me fifteen hundred to see your hypnotherapist I only went one time, you let it slide Fell on hard times a year ago Was hoping you would let it go and you did I have emotional motion sickness Somebody roll the windows down There are no words in the English language I could scream to drown you out I'm on the outside lookin' through You're throwin' rocks around your room And while you're bleeding on your back in the glass I'll be glad that I made it out And sorry that it all went down like it did

⋆ ➤  I dug my heels into the gravel As evidence for you to unravel A drag path etched in the surface Can you find me? Can you, can you? Can you, can you? A drag path etched in the surface As evidence I left there on purpose A sad sap laying on the surface (Can you, can you find me?) Can you find me? I dug my heels into the gravel As evidence for you to unravel A drag path etched in the surface Can you find me?

⋆ ➤ Oh mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head And as I climb into an empty bed, oh well, enough said I know it's over still I cling, I don't know where else I can go, over and over Oh mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head You see the sea wants to take me, the knife wants to slit me Do you think you can help me Sad veiled bride please be happy, handsome groom give her room Loud loutish lover treat her kindly though she needs you More than she loves you I know it's over, still I cling I don't know where else I can go, over, over

It's so easy to laugh it's so easy to hate it takes guts to be gentle And kind, over and over Love is natural and real, but not for you my love not tonight my love Love is natural and real, but not for such as you and I my love, oh mother