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I'm getting back into the vocaloid fandom because their lil noises makes me happy <3 Do you guys know/like vocaloid? If so what's your favorite? My current favorites are Meika twins, Rana and Fukase

to precisando de um dinheiro urgente, meu pai vai atrasar oq ele me deve https://toyhou.se/27941603.tbn R$50 https://toyhou.se/28748888.ufo R$15 https://toyhou.se/14916041.tbn R$20 @ilumimarin agradeço ao compartilhar!!

I think I found the solution

i want my lines to be crisp and soft at the same time I'm going insane please recommend a brush pls pls

Gente meio que uma emergência, alguém gostaria desss bixinho por R$40??

Small gift for @Ilumimarin 💕✨️

Meow meow meow meow Well anyway, about work, I don't really know what I can do. I'm trying to finish my list, I've been doing things slowly and all but I'm getting frustrated a lot and my glasses still broken. I might post something relevant at night, see ya

I remember many things but I have a bad memory at the same time so people will pick on me for the things I don't remember and compare to things I remember It's been what? 2 years? I did not forget, I just couldn't bring myself to finish it cuz my tablet broke and my current PC will not run AE for me to make it, but I still remember and it hunts my brain to this day. This is how much my brain will hold onto things. Also if the owner of this thing is for some reason reading this, I still plan on making it, I just don't know how at the moment wah

The only way I can explain is to compare me to the things I kin but even then "if you have anything of him, I hate you" YEAH I TOOK THAT TO HEART And I feel I get rejected like this in tiny ways, that was a dumb example tho, but anways

talking to my friends about nothing o avoid bringing them down. Yeah I'm getting help, but I've been through medication that got me paralysed and none of these treatment took the feeling away. It's not a phase, it's constant, the thing that changes is how much I can ignore it everyday.

even comparing myself to people who actually have problems, they still belong, and I don't, and I don't know why. I always get back to the conclusion that there's something fundamentally wrong with me. I don't know what this is, I can't seem to be able to fix it.

I don't know, I guess what I want is that people here care, or to be among them as someone who is part of the community but no matter what I do, I'm not a good person in the end so I can get nothing. Is what I deserve? Nothing

Look! Scribbles! I forgot what I was going to say. I guess I'm a person who needs affirmation most of the time. I don't know how I function but

tried to imitate the people who looks healthy but I'm not healthy so like

idk what is an atom lol Well, everytime I try pushing out of it I just spiral back to the same thinking. I wish to have more people, I have a total of 2 friends (excluding my partner lol) but like, I got tired of bothering them with my lil rants and they're probly tired also. My brain tells me at least.

I wish I could be more open on the things that goes on in my head. Showing up here only when I'm feeling happy feels trapping. Like, my friend compared me to an atom (very cute), something that has a lot of ends and all of them would be my moods or parts of me. Nothing I showed is a lie, it's just that it's a lot of ends and I'm all of them.

Maybe that's a depressive episode, but even when I'm happy, this feeling remains. I never know what to do. I can't connect with people, my arts feel empty and unoriginal and I have nothing in me to bring people in so I don't know what I'm doing here. I always feel like I'm holding back somehow, to be seen as something good, or at least not bad. It's been weeks. I just feel wrong every time I start thinking about things. Anything. I can't see anything in me or in my arts that makes me stand out or at least be thought of. There's nothing unique about me. Never. I spent the majority of yesterday crying for the same reason and many days. I feel like I'm just pushing it until I reach the limit. I'm just waiting for it at this point.

I wanna delete this entire channel again

And wip of that one ych people wanted finished. I will make another one to fulfil the last poll, I just tought it matched the theme