𝑠𝑢𝑎 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢

I'm tired of constantly thinking about how I look, that I need to lose weight. I'm tired of envying thin people who were able to lose weight or people who are naturally thin. I'm tired of doing things, but I like it. I enjoy exercising. I can't even skip a day. Not because I have to do it, but because it brings me pleasure. I love sports. I want to run in the morning, but because of my knees and the fear of embarrassing myself, I'm afraid of being judged, it kills my desire to run. I wish I was thin. Every time someone asks me "don't you think you ate enough?" I start to think that they think I'm fat. When i ask for something delicious to be left for me, but i get a "what else?" as an answer, i hear a "you're already fat, where are you going to fit it?" instead. I’ve been losing weight since I was nine years old, and I regret that since that moment, I've had nothing but thoughts about losing weight and how much I've eaten.