🔞👑 mitomania 💖💥

this is my dark fantasy, not fantasizing to always have friends to go out or having a dream job or not struggling a single day anymore, i want people calling me in the middle of the day just to casually tell me they love me cause they want my bad side in their life and not just the good one and they are willing to leave everything and come to me when i am struggling cause i need to go at a slower pace and they are willing to choose me over other choices cause nothing truly matters as much as having your favorite important person in your life

if you don't like me venting just fuck you and go out of my life i am so done with everything

at this point really a depression phase away from creating a discord just for everyone to join when i need someone cause i am tired of having to check every friend's chat to see if they're awake and available and then begging to remind me they love me cause it seems everyone in this era dislikes being emotionally available while i need to be reminded that i am real and i have a body and i have to do it everyday on my own and i always have to do big things by myself with no one's help and i am tired of keep doing this i do want someone's help for once, i am tired of the "i am here for you, just ask" bullshit and then when i ask it's never meeting my needs, it's only being available at their condition and my whole life is just a succession of having to be satisfied at others' conditions cause i have left no choice and feeling of being rejected and never a priority, only an accessory. i am tired of asking for help if my voice then is not heard, kinda wanna my utopia where i can just push a botton and everyone automatically knows i need to feel the love around me cause the only person who was consistently willing to do it is not around anymore and it fucking sucks

uhmmmm so... a lot happened while you didn't hear from me

i am willing to test how strong your back is

my dark fantasy