bullshitting to all

i'm not a nerd, bro i can't believe i'm not a nerd. fuckkkkkkk. why am i not a nerd

there is no god, wonderful new world

the theory of relativity is romantic

there is a level of forgiveness you can provide to your younger self. all the herd saying you shall forgive yourself instead of being harsh, needs to understand this. you cannot reason with a person who has hanged his past and portrayed it like a suicide. you cannot forgive dead people, because they are not there anymore.

oh yeah i definitely fucked up. i just wasn't ready to accept it. and kept blaming on circumstances and other things.

but why do i still wish somebody to acknowledge me when i behave outworld-ly or in competent, if i can't do the same?

loving somebody while ignoring their incompetence is like a boulder in my way i cannot remove. an ounce of incompetence makes me start resenting and it never really goes back to 0 like an unhinged meter.

for the context, the background noise was because it was raining

720p quality

this might be my best capture till this day

another butterfly effect i remembered just now, is how robert pattinson was working with zendaya in "the Drama" movie and meanwhile he expressed his desires of how badly he wanted to work in a big franchise like dune where zendaya is lead actress. though considering robert pattinson's history, he is very skeptic of picking up roles without proper knowledge (ptsd of twilight) but he did, and zendaya told this to denis probably. and he got recruited for dune 3 as a role villain. imagine if only he would have suppressed his expression of his desire, we wouldn't see him here, lol.

the most insufferable fandom is timothee fans (or should i say timothee ex-fans) who met him through beautiful boy/call me by your name.

the worst thing you can do with the things you like is associate them with a person

i accidentally click the back of my earpods and Spotify suddenly tries to give me heatstroke by playing Jeff buckley, so i know it's time to turn off the lights and have a good session of crying

did you know cutting papaya seeds in half causes the sound of an explosion