SoBer

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Thanks alot

STILL A LONG WAY TO GO HEALING, GETTING HURT SOMETIMES THERE ARE DAYS I CRY & DAYS WHEN I LITERALLY GO BACK TO OLD MEMORIES JUST TO MAKE MY LIFE FEEL EVEN HEAVIER AND SADDER FOR NO REASON lol JUST SOMETIMES 🙂‍↕️ MOST OF THE TIME I DON’T LET THESE LITTLE DRAMATIC MOMENTS WIN OVER ME BECAUSE I’VE GOT A PLAYLIST THAT SAVES ME, A GUITAR THAT CALMS MY MIND, FAMILY THAT ALWAYS HAS MY BACK, AND REAL FRIENDS I CAN ACTUALLY TRUST

^U^ BUT I WASNT I WAS JUST GROWING INTO MYSELF I WAS SCARED BECAUSE I COULDNT SEE PEOPLE WHO MADE IT BY BEING DIFFERENT ALL I COULD SEE WERE THE PEOPLE WHO MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WASN'T ENOUGH I KEPT TELLING MYSELF, "IF YOU WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL, GET GOOD GRADES LOVED HAVE FRIENDS YOU HAVE TO BE LIKE THEM" THATS THE BIGGEST LIE I EVER BELIEVEDTHESE DAYS I GENUINELY ENJOY WALKING ALONE. NO HEADPHONES SOMETIMES. JUST M, MY THOUGHTS AND THE PEACE I USED TO RUN AWAY FROM I STOPPED FORCING CONNECTIONS. STOPPED SHRINKING MYSELF TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE COMFORTABLE AND SOMEHOW THAT'S EXACTLY WHEN LIFE STARTED FEELING LIGHTER

HMMM TURNS OUT THE MOMENT YOU STOP TRYING TO BE A COPY OF SOMEONE ELSE IS THE MOMENT THINGS ACTUALLY START WORKING MY BIGGEST MISTAKE? I THOUGHT THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE IT WAS TO BECOME SOMEONE I WASNT, I KEPT CHASING PEOPLE I LOOKED UP TO CHANGED THE WAY I TALKED, ACTED, EVEN THE WAY I THOUGHT JUST SO I'D FIT IN JUST SO I WOULDN'T GET LEFT BEHIND FOR THE LONGEST TIME, I HATED HOW QUIET I WAS BECOMING I THOUGHT WALKING ALONE MEANT I WAS LONELY I THOUGHT HAVING FEWER FRIENDS MEANT I WAS SOMEHOW LOSING