مفرط

I asked for love he gave me For friends he gave me But it’s just seems unreal to me All of this Sounds like I don’t deserve that ; so somehow i just destroyed it with my own hands .

When i was younger i asked god to help He did help me I fucked it up I grew up Again he helped me and i just again fucked it up.

That sense of guilt is heavy on my shoulders. That sense of animalistic acts that i do to everyone i have ever loved. That pride . That arrogant. That selfishness. I can’t even understand why even people have me as their friends ; i cant even think about someone love me Behind this mask ; there’s broken person who just act that nothing can get though inside his heart

The truest thing about people is when you break them. They’ll never go normal to you. I break someones heart what kind of foolishness i was thinking with myself that i could have her back. Im not even worthy of that.

I prayed i asked. It was given to me. And I abandoned her.

Now i truly understand. She was the one. The one who could make my brain stop and relaxs it. But she’s long time gone. I lost her.

Let go of me, my friend You do not understand The pain I'm going through Is only because of you